It's My Life ! <3♥

2011-05-16T11:46:00.002+08:00

Hey guys . Back again . Hahaha.

Today was my last day of exam and i am feeling bored. I have not upload the Sentosa pics yet . So just wait for my post on it okaay ? LONELY , define it for me . For me , lonely is not always a negative thing . Lonely have both negative and positive value in it . My life simply is lonely . Lonely without the perfect love which i've been searching for . All i know is that i've been sitting by the rock near the wide ocean for so long . Yeah , i do have friends . Their the best part of me . But still this lonely thingy is still deep down in my heart . But i still am leading this life happily with the help around me . Hahaha . I have some love tips for u guys , in a relationship , we must give and take . Understand each other and trusting each other is very important . Without understanding and trusting , this love relationship will never work . Having problems talking to your partner ? Just ask them out and talk things between the both of u . Let out your actual and true feelings . No need to hide . Cause when you hide things from your partner , it means that you are hiding your true feelings towards them . The truth hurts but it will hurt much deeper if your partner knows it later . After that , things will not be like it used to be . It will totally change .

Irwan , my adik . Hahaha . He's so cute right ? Yes also , he's my cutie adik . Hahaha . Adik Irwan has been there for me together with the rest . He's so manje . I like joking around with him and manje2 with him . Hahaha. He always thinks that he is no one to us . But he really do mean something to us . He always makes me and some of us smile . The way he talks and jokes around , he is the cutest out of them all . Seriously i can't bear to lose him also . To Adik Irwan , smile always dik . Akak loves you so much . I promise not to make you cry anymore okay ? I will tcare of you like my own blood brother . Akak promise not to leave you . You're my one and only adik . Akak will always love you and will never want to hurt you . Akak want to see you happy with all of us . Don't feel left out , we're always here for you . Adik don't leave me okaay ? I really love you adik . Smile always okaay ? Hahaha .

- Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥

p/s : I'm not a girl , not yet a woman . ♥

2011-05-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

Hey guys . I'm back .

Been sad lately . I just don't know why . Maybe because i felt that i lost someone in my life . My nights used to fill with laughters , joy and smiles . But now , only sadness , tears and loniless . Is this the feeling of lost ? I don't know . Why must it change so fast ? When i really need someone to make my night a joyful night , it ended so fast . Haixx.. Maybe loniless is my one and only friend ? I just don't know what to do . Everyone is asking am i okaay ? I just answered one simple sentence that is , " Yeap , i am fine . " Together with a fake smile or laughter . Thats all i am able to do now . Life doesn't mean much to me . But i'm trying to search for that something special to make my life fill with wonders back . To me , making people smile is my happiness . Even though i'm sad in the inside , i will still try my best to make them smile .

This guy , Krishna , he's also someone special to me . He's my scandal now . Haha . Rank up ! Haha . He an Dinie have helped me alot in life . They were there when i need someone . He always makes me smile . He also pampers me alot . That is what i like . Haha . He knws when i lie to him , he knws when i'm feeling sad , simply saying , he knws everything about me . Haha . To Krishna , thanks for being there for me . Appreciate it alot . You helped me alot when i'm down . In fact you helped everyone alot . Don't be too stressful luh . Don't like seeing your stressful face . I like seeing your happy face . Especially when you're hyper . Hahaha . Remember this , don't and never do anything reckless again . Me no likey . Hahaha .

That's all i have . 'Till next time . Will be posting about Sentosa trip with loves . ♥

- Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥

p/s : I miss you . I miss your smile . ♥

2011-05-09T05:08:00.003+08:00

Hey guys ! I'm back at 5.10 in the morning . Haha . Can't sleep . Haixx.. Don't know why . But nvm .

Do you guys remember that i mention i will post all about my love ones ? Last time it was the girls and now it's time for the boys .

First will be Dinie BM . Why ? Haha . Cause he force me to post about him first since that time . Haha . So to him , naaaah ! Here's a post for you . Kkay . About Dinie BM , he's a joker luhh . All i can say is that he knows how to make people laugh and smile . He's a good friend to me . He's my bestfriend . Never stop in giving me good advice . Even we had fights , but we are still okay . We both have the trust towards each other . This guy is the love of Nana Cutipie . Hehe . They look so cute together taaw . Haha . Hope they lastloong ! Hehe. To Dinie BM , thanks for being there for me . Thanks for cheering me up when i'm down especially when i broke up with Acaap . Sorry for troubling you at times . I appreciate what you had did to my life . You've changed my life alot by being a father and a brother to me . Hahaha ! I know you don't like me calling you that . But it's the truth . Hahaha . Lastloong with Nana my cutiepie taaw . If you don't , i smack'smack you . Hahhaahaa . Now i'm done posting about you . Hope you're happy about this post . (:

That's all i have . Wait for the next post on...... Bye !

- Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch

p/s : This feeling is unstopable . ♥

2011-05-04T20:15:00.002+08:00

Hey guys ! Miss me ritee ? Sorry for MIA-ing for a long time . I am so sorry . Now i will really try to update u guys frquently .

Latest news about me ? I'm back to phase 1 . That is , i'm single . Don't ask why and so on . But i'm fated to live alone and die alone . Hahaha . Joking only . Maybe he's not my Mr. Perfect . Haha . No one knw who is my Mr. Perfect . Only me . Hahaha . I am moving on with mey life . Experiencing and flying freely to find something in life just like a butterfly . I am happy with my life now . Together with my one and only 188 Famalia . They're the best . You guys knw it urself if u guys read my blog luh . Hahaha . I'm still that cheerful girl . From your minahrep to your cutiepie to your sweetiepie to syahsyah irah to syahsyah rasta and now to syahsyah bonchbonch . Hahaha . AJ's now in NS i think . Miss him though . He and Su are together . Shocking ? Naaah ! Not that much . Hahaha . I'm happy here with my Abang Sayang , Dinie BM and Adik Irwan . Won't forget the rest . Met new friends and am happy with my life now . I used to be that girl which always talks about LOVE . Giving tips to you guys about LOVE . Now , i will relaks abit on that . Will try my best to give you guys the best LOVE tips ever . To help you guys in life and relationships . That's all i have to say for now . Will update you guys so soon about my interesting , crazy and wonderful life ! <3

- Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch

p/s : loving someone doesn't mean a thing if it only means one thing , leaving you . <3

2011-02-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hey ! Sorry for not blogging for a long time . AGAIN . Hahaa..

Currently i can't sleep . Idk why . Just can't shut this eyes . I'm now down with a flu . Last weekend i was down with a high fever . Now this ? Walao ! Bile mau habes . So the irits taw . Hubby cinta pun got flu . Like sweet gytu ehy ? Hehe . Cannot kiss hubby cinta always . Hehe . Valentine's day was like 2 days ago . I was firstly sad as hubby cinta can't fetch me from school on tat day . Everyone in school was giving and recieving flowers and gifts from someone . I started to think that hubby cinta have forgotten . But i went to Heartlad Mall with Fakheerah sayang to buy a gift for hubby cinta . Bought for him a Mickey and Minnie cup . Wrapped it nicely and try to hid it so he won't know . Terserempak Akym otw out . So followed him home after sending Fakheerah sayang to the MRT station . After Akym change , we cabbed to 188 . There i was shocked seeing hubby cinta . He hugged me and suddenly Irwan pulled me to the side and talked with me . Hubby cinta then approached us and he was like " BHY ! Ape tu ?" When i look at that direction , he showed me a flower with his self made stuffs there . I was like OMGEE ! Haha. Then he took out a box of chocolates . Double OMGEEE . So i signaled to Irwan to give me his gift and so he did . I gave it to hubby cinta and he was excited . Heopened the wrapping and was happy tat he recieved that cup from me . What a Valentine . Haha .

KKay luh . Me wanna get ready for bed . Tmrw skooling lioaw . Till nxt time . Byes ! ♥

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : Jahatnya Cinta !

2011-01-29T23:57:00.003+08:00

Ape nak jadi dengan kawan zaman sekarang ? Janji cinta sampai mati . Boleh mati kalau berpisah . Senang kate luh , kawan sejati . Gy jalan sudah ! There's this girl whom i know for about months . Janji kawan sejati , tkley berpisah and blah blah blah . But now , gy mampus luh dengan tu semue . All she said was lies . Should have not believe her . Kawan B.P mcm niey bley gy mati uh ! Ape gune kate kawan sejati kalau lupekan mcm tu aje ? Mentang2 dh ade member baru , sanggup buang kawan lame mcm SAMPAH ! Wei , after wat we have did for u , this is wat u gave us in return ?! Senang kate uh , gy mampus uh dgn kawan sejati kau ! Dah buat kite mcm niey kn , jgn pk kite nk amek atau trime kau balek . This is ur choice not ours . Dh brape hidup orng kau hancurkan . Abeh nk step good2 pulak . HAH ! Gy jalan sudah . Seriously uh , kalau kau maseh brani nk tunjuk muke kau kt kite , kau tgk uh muke sape yng pecah ! Suke hati kau je nk BUANG kite . So why not kite yang BUANG kau balek ! Kalau kau tak boleh hargai kite , we will do the same to u ! So jgn pernah kau nk mengaku kau niey KAWAN SEJATI kite lgy !! Pade kite , kau dh lame MATI !!

Hey . Sorry about the post. It started out badly . Butnow i will start it in a good way . Let's start talking about this beautiful girl , Dianah Syahirah . We just getting closer day by day . I used to misunderstand her bcoz of a certain girl who buat citer about her and Hubby cinta . But now , me and Dianah are close . Hehehe . She's a sweet girl like Nana Ketotty and Shira . We all four get along quite well . Simply say that Dianah is a girl who loves music and Justin Bieber . Hahaha . Everyone knws that i think . She also is a fun girl to hang out with . Can laugh and joke around with her . So , it's okay i guess . What else ? Hmmmmmm... I seriously don't knw wat to post about her . But all i knw she has the same place in my heart just like the others . Love u Dianah Syahirah ! ♥

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALZZ ! ♥

p/s : Kawan Buat Pakai Je !

2011-01-17T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hey korngs !

Let's talk about Saturday shall we ? Hehe. kkay . Saturday went to 188 around 2 i think. Then no one there eventhough i woke Dinie up. But he mandi lmbt sehy . Kalahkn perempuan . Hehe . Sorry Dinie . Then Shira saayaang came . So talk2 to her then went up to AJ Darling hse . He buka music punye luh kuat . Boleh dgr dari bawah . Haha . Then duduk at his hse while waiting for Dinie and Adik Razin . Soon they come . So kite lpk2 jap . Then when Ari called , we went downstairs . But AJ Darling and Shira stay . Tak tau luh dorng buat ape . Haha . Then we slack at 188 . Andy and the rest soon come . I asked they all if wanna follow me go Expo coz mummy ajak . Then they were like okay . So lpk2 and then hubby cinta came . He was sleepy. So slept for a while . Abang Krishna was sick . So AJ Darling asked him to go back home and rest . At around 8 gytu , me , AJ Darling , hubby cinta , Dinie , Ah Dot and Abang An went to Expo . Dianah want follow . But she need rush to somewhere . Ade hal jap. When reached Expo , me and hubby cinta went inside hall 5 first . Wanna mit mummy . After miting mummy , watch show . Got Bayu Kasumanegara . He was soooo cute . Hubby cinta jeles gytu . Haha . F-ucked care luhh . After the show , meet mummy . She give me duit to buy makan . So we makan . After makan i went to mummy to say i going home with my frens . She asked me buy makan for adik2 . So i go luh . Tapi orn jualan tu menggatal sungguh . So ape lgy , hubby cinta dtng . They angkat buah hubby cinta luh siool . So i just diamkn je luh . After all that , salam mummy and went home with them . Bile nk kluar , saw Bayu Kasumanegara and Lynn Malik . Took pics with them . Hubby cinta nak je menyelit . Jeles terlampau . HMPH ! Haha . Overall it was fun with them .

Today did nothing much . Lpk2 je mcm biase . Miss them all sehy . Akim pulak pandai buat2 majok gytu . Pk btol . Haha . Btw , Dinie panggil me paitoa pasal carrotcake aje . Lame pe . Haha . Abng Dan pun tron nari . Did some homework with Ari , Dianah and Abng Dan . Sambil tu bbl2 luh . Haha . Bnyk bende tau . OMGEEEE ! Haha . Went back home around 7+ . And here i am .

So today wanna talk about the girl in that pic . Shira saaayaaaang ! She's the best too . Mcm Nana jgk . She alwaes help me alot and slalu gurau2 with me . She alwaes shares her prob with me as well as myself . She alwaes makes me happy when i'm done . Just wanna say sorry to Shira sayaaang kalau i ade buat u mrh , saket hati or watsoever . I love u y'knw ? U're a part of me too . I can't bear to loose u taww sayang . U're my best sis . I'm lucky to meet u and Nana semue . Korng the best and alwaes there for me . Shira is the sweetest girl besides Nana i've ever met . So Shira sayaang , jangan nangis2 slalu okay ? I knw u love AJ . He's urs forever taaw . Haha . Jangan jeles2 lgy kay syng ? I will jage my batas also kay ? Love u luhh SHIRA SAAAYAAAANG !!! ♥

kkayluh . Up till' here je . Byes ! ♥

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALZ !♥

p/s : Pen Merah Pen Biru , You Marah , I LOVE YOU ! ♥

2011-01-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hey korngs ! So sorry never update blog for so long .

As u guys knw , school has strted and i have tons of thing to get prepared . This year will be my stressfull year . F-uck luhhh !! Confirm i will have migrains . First day of school , i was sent home because of my hair "dyed" . CCB luhh ! Dulu tknk tangkap . First day then nk tangkap . But then i went to AJ darling hse and slack . Haha ! But still get to have fun with the baju-baju uniform . Hehe.
So now alrdy second week of school . Things in school getting abit worst luh . Homework is increasing daily . Can die . Haha . After school , always realesed my stress with my famalia and especially with my teletubbies . Hehe . Who ? They are Nana Kettoty , Shira sayang and Dianah . Can't be separated from them . Saaaaaayaaaang dorng sesgt3 !! Hehe . AJ darling , Dinie , Abang Krishna , Akim and the rest still lyn-ing me the same way as usual . Hehehe . Lupe uh , hubby cinta ku . Haha . Still going to skool with him and he still fetching me from skool . Lately tk bnyk gadoh . Just misunderstanding and so on . Really love him and tknk berpisah from him . Bought couple rings as a symbol of our love . Luckily he likes it . NO , he loves it . Hehe . I cinta u luh bhy ! Bley ? Hehe .

See that pic up there ? That's my one of my sayang , NANA KETTOTY ! Becoming more close to her and i love her sooo much ! Hehehe . Shira and Dianah pun luh . Now , Nana Kettoty is one of the people which i love to the max . Same goes to Shira and Dianah . Without them , i don't know what to do . They've been supporting me and loving me just like my own sisters . Syahsyah cinta korng ! Hehe . Today will talk about Nana Kettoty . Tmrw2 , talk about the others okay ? Hehe . Nana Kettoty so the cute luhh . Nak cubit pipi Nana bley ? Hehehe . Suke kacau Nana and Dinie . Haha . Nana is soo sweet . She is the most sweetest girl i've ever met . Nana , jangan tinggalkn Syah okaay ? Hehe . We share each other secrets taaw . No rahsia2 . Hehe . Nana ! Syah love you !! ♥♥♥

kkayluh . Untill here . Don't knw what to post lgy . Hehe . Byes ! ♥

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALZ ! ♥

p/s : Suaramu membawa ketenangan .

2011-01-01T17:57:00.002+08:00

Hey ! Happy New Year guys ! Hope this year will bring good fortune to all of you .

Yesterday went countdown at Sengkang only . Meet famalia at 188 around 7+ . Then we all proceed to the countdown place around 8 . Then the show begins . So we all just enjoy the show and took pics also . Then me and Su jalan to meet the rest yang tgh diri tgk show near the stage . Saw mama Nana and Abang An . Mama drng gerek gyler ! Hehe . Then when the Talent Mania strted , we move to the opp. side and sat there . After the contest it was a performance by Mark Lee . And then it was SLEEQ's turn . OMGEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!! They're super hot . Alyph even smile at me ! Hahahaha . And , and , get to touch his hand . Soooo the happy . But Syarif was at the other side . Haissss .. Sedih pe . Then we just stick around to wait for Taufik's performance . So when Taufik came out , all the girls went mad !!!! He's soooooo HAWWWTTTT !!! Mama Nana also join . Haha . Just shout like a mad person luhhhh . Hahaha . Hubby cinta and the other guys also join pekik-pekik . Hahaha . After his performance was the fireworks . It was so lovely . But Hubby cinta was not beside me that time . Sad as i can't be the first one to wish him Happy New Year during the fireworks . After the fireworks , everyone strt hugging and wishing Happy New Year . Then i saw Hubby cinta coming forward . I wish him too . After that Taufik sang another song . This time i was with Amyrawr . We pekik-pekik Taufik's name and salam him . OMGEEEEEEEEE !!!!!! Hahaha . Taufik ask all to jump . And guess what ? The other famalia member also join the fun . We dance-dance like nobody buisness . Hahaha . Then after all finish , we went somewhere else first . We meet Andy and Ari's family . We relax-relax dulu then we lepak around Sengkang first . Ramai dah balek . The one left was me , Dini , AJ , Krishna , Hubby cinta , Razin , Shira , Zaki , Irwan and Su . We all went to Anchorvale to ton there . First time ton dgn dorng . We ton and kacau2 each other . Memang fun . I went back at 6 am . Reach home around 6.40 . Slept around 7 i think .

Today woke up at 2.30 because Amyrawr bby called me . She asked me to come to her crib . So i did . Tdi plan nk gy A'an Junior punye chalet . But then tk jdi . So ltr i going to Rivervale Mall to buy something then lpk jap . Maybe go mkn with my sis also . Kkay luh . Gtg . Byess !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : I Am Not As Beautiful As Cinderella , But I Am Your Cinderella .

2010-12-24T01:53:00.003+08:00

Heylooo korng-korngs ! Miss me ?

So super *singing SORRY SORRY song* for not updating blog . Been busy with outings etc . So story sikit pasal my life , still am with my DUMB ASS hubby cinta , Acap , and going through our super irritating life together . Hahaha ! He always like kalahkn me . Sedih taw . Am happy that we are almost 1 year tak menjadi together . Sayang tk menjadi sehy . Haha . Famalia still the same . AJ darling court postponed till the 10 Jan 2011 . And it is on my and hubby cinta ANNI !!! URGGGGGGGGG !!!! Sedih pe . GOSHHHH !! But however , i will be there for my darling . I really miss going out with my beautiful S.H.A.S . When can we have an outing again ? It's been years i think . But never mind . Next year plan to celebrate our 7 years of being together at USS . Hahaha . BTW , went there alrdy and it was SUPERB !!! Hahaha . So am hoping for the best of fun next year . 31 Dec is nearing and it will be a start of a new year and a new book . I totally have to concerntrate on my O's etc . Hope i will do my best next year so i can have a better future and i can make my mummy proud . Hehehe . Really don't know what to update lgy . Haha . Currently now Eraah is sleeping over at my hse . We even planned to go to Korea when our age reaches 18 . Me , my sis and Eraah alrdy did some researches on the wonderful places to go etc . Hahaha ! BTW , just now went to shop for Wani's birthday present . Bought her a SUPER JUNIOR poster which is quite big and a camere T-shirt . I even bought myself a 2PM poster . Hahaha ! So love NIKHUN ! Hahaha .

Kkayluh . That is all i have . Till next time . Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : Love You Luh DUMB ASS ! ♥

2010-12-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

Hey korngs !
Yesterday never update blog pasal went out the whole day with family . Abang Yayan just reach Singapore too . Haha . Fun habes .

Today i am going to update about some issues about today's teens and the past teens . Thanks to Tubelawak . I came across this link , tubelawak , and i really think that the post really makes an issue nowdays . People kept saying especially the elderly . They always says that nowdays teens are more involve in sex stuffs . But if we think back , their time was the same too . I am also not supporting but trying to say that the should not just say like that . It's up to our heart to easily get involved in this sex stuff or not to . I realised that these issue is really getting worst yea by year . People sometimes should just think using their brains . The past and present isn't much different . It's the same only teens nowdays are more involve with these sex stuff . So my opinion is that , teens now and then are still the same . No difference . It's just a matter of dare to do or not . Thanks to Tubelawak for the post .

About today , i lpk with famalia . AJ court was today . Am really scared and worried . IZ ajak makan . So me , Nana and IZ went to eat . Biler i sampai 188 , they tell me tha AJ masuk . I was sad and about to cry . But pasal i ingat my janji to AJ , i tk jdi nanges . So lpk2 while imbas kembali kenangan with AJ . Then tibe-tibe bdak2 yang ikot gy court dtng . I asked them about Shira . But they say she at Mall . So just sit one corner . Suddenly saw AJ and Shira walking together . I pekik and peluk AJ . I hate when he joke around about these stuff . His court postponed to 10 Jan 2011 . My anni with hubby cinta sehy . Haixx .. Lpk2 with AJ semue then Kak Ena came down . She was sad pasal something . Senang kate she and Ari ade conflict . Haixx .. So to cut it short , today was an fun emotional day . Haha .

Kkay luh . I want go ibu house . Nak bgy pressie die . Then my darlings that is , Su , IZ and Dayah nk dtng . Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : Jangan pernah engkau berubah . ♥

2010-12-12T02:11:00.002+08:00

Hey korngs !
Amaciaam ? How's life ? Haha . Tgh mendaq now . So i wanna update u guys what happened on the 10.12.10 .

Last friday , had a picnic/pit at Changi . All was going by the plan cume part going off from 188 aje lmbt . So as u guys knw , it's my anni with hubby cinta . So that pit/picnic was to celebrate mine and hubby cinta anni , Shira & Aj anni as well as Su & An walaupun drng nye anni lmbt . But demi AJ we celebrate sama2 ! Haha . Ouh , forget ! My wonderful cuz pun tron . That is Kak Ena . Haha . She all the way ngn Ari . SANGKOOOT !!! Haha . Kay , tkmo disturb them . Back to the topic , i should thank my aunt and Fiqal's mum for the food and transport . Thank u sgt2 . Reach at Changi je , everyone eat first . Tak pandang bende laen . Pandang makan . Haha . After makan , we cut cake . The couples only luh . Had fun playing cake . Haha . After that we play games which was organised by me and Akim . Fun and funny . Haha . All about teamwork . My team tk menang cox the leader was not even participating . Bodoh peh anjing ! Haha . Then AJ , Kak Ena , Ari , Dini and me duduk at the beach . We bbl k**** semue . Haha . Semue alive sakkk !! Haha . After lpk2-ing , i want mandi with Kak Ena . Ari pun sibuk nk mandi jgk . So we all three the only ones yng reti nk mandi after a long day luh . After showering , recieved call from Hasif Nitro . Saaaaaaap ! Member ajak gy karaoke luh doh ! Haha . So i and Kak Ena agree to go . But Aj and Shira ade problem . ALERMAK ! Help them a bit and went off coz Hasif Nitro dh nk sampai . So salam2 them and went off . Waited for Hasif Nitro kat tepi jalan . Then saw him , Afai RX-Z and In . I tumpang Afai RX-Z . Haha . Miss riding with them . Kak Ena pulak tumpang In . Haha . Went karaoke at Grandlink . After melalak2 mcm orng2 gyler , me and Kak Ena went to Clark Quay to meet her members pulak . So follow her . Went home at around 2.30am . Kak Ena slept over my house . Haha .

Today just lpk at 188 with them and Kak Ena also . Bley tahan gerek luh . I tk habes2 kacau AJ , Dini and Abang An . Haha . Btw , i wanna congrats Dini and Nana as well as Kak Ena and Ari . Hope korng lastlong sudah . Yang tau , tau je . Yang tk , and baru dpt tau , diam2 je . Hahaha !

To hubby cinta : Happy 2nd monthsary . Sorry tk dpt spend time ngn u btol2 . I promise i will make it up and u knw when kn ? Sorry if i penah buat u mrh atau saket hati . You knw i love u soooo much and i knw u do too . I love u bhy and i miss u .

To Su : Jangan gadoh2 luh dgn Abang An selalu . No good also taw . And tron soon . (:

kkayluh . nk tido . NITES !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : Dini Gangster **** Kumbang ! HAHAHA !

2010-12-07T00:25:00.002+08:00

Hey Korngs !

Sorry for not updating my blog yesterday . A bit busy . Yesterday just went out with family and watched movie . Today went fishing with drng-drngs . Very the fun but bad luck . Coz it was raining badly and not much luck . Haha . The only caught 3 japan fish . Haha ! WTH tol ! Then they all serbu my house just to eat . Haha . Biase jgk ! Syahsyah kalau masak , memang laku nye . Haha . Currently now ngah otp . And i don't know nk update ape cox totally tgh blank . Haha .

Kkayluh . Till tmrw ye ? BYES !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLZ ! ♥

p/s : Akan ku bawa kau pergi . ♥

2010-12-05T03:19:00.002+08:00

Hey korngs !

What a day i had . Woke up at 2.30 pm as hubby cinta called . Then slept again and woke up at 3.30 pm . After that mummy told me to buy presents for Hasif and Danial as their birthdays are on the same month luh . Then asked hubby cinta to called me . Then he called and i asked him to accompany me . But guessed what ? He tak kuase . So i was pissed as not first time he buat me gytu . Dah selalu jugak . But what to do . I have to tahan je luh . So called IZ and asked him to follow me . So he agreed . Search for the best presents for them then gy makan with IZ . After that we walked to 188 and waited for the rest . I wasn't in the mood to meet hubby cinta . So totally not . Then they came but they were 1 hr plus late . Hubby cinta came to me and salam me . I can't pandang him langsung . Feel like crying sia biler tgk muke die . Then i went salam2 the rest and sat with AJ darling and Krishna all . AJ darling asked me what is up so i told him . Andy soon came along and asked me why and everything . He said that hubby cinta tgh emo-emo sorng . So i was like heck care luh . My heart pain he tak tau . Andy then tarik me to him . All the way tak pandang him . Heart was crying all they way but i am controlling my tears from rolling down . Then i told hubby cinta i want talk with Su . So brought Su somewhere else and told her what happened . Cried all my heart out . Then AJ darling , IZ , Yan , Wan and Ari came along . All want to make me smile . Then hubby cinta come . SO we settle things out and things got better and as per normal . Then everyone came to my house as they want eat as well as fry their chicken . So they did come . Now , currently , AJ darling , hubby cinta , Yazid , Razin and Zaki at my house still . They overnight here . They super the irrits luhh . Bising taww ! Macam nk plaster mulut satu2 . Hahaha ! Cfem kene f-ucked biler drng bace . Sorry ehy korng2 ! ^^

kkayluh . Member semue dh bising want play comp . Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UAOLS ! ♥

p/s : Wished that won't happened again .

2010-12-04T03:29:00.002+08:00

Heyloo korngs !

Guessed wat ? I'm still awake ! Weeeee~ Haha . Currently am otp with my scandals , Dini & AJ , Akim , Abng An , Krishna and hubby cinta which entered without we knowing . Had fun talking with them . Bbl gyler2 semue . Haha . AJ and Dini even had a battle to let me pick who is the best scandal of all . Haha . Very the funny . Hahaha ! Love them both always luh . Can't never pick who is the best . Feel very relaxing talking to them . From sad to happy . Happy to sad . Sad to happy . Haha . Macam-macam feelings luh . Very bored taww . At computer don't know what to do . Lucky got these wonderfull people otp with me . Basically just now did nothing much . Lpk2 only . Ooooooopppssss ! I forgot . I went to lunch with Imran and Amyrawr too . Haha . Had fun but akward . Today is my first day . Have to go through a lot of pain . I hate these kinds of cramps . GRRRRRRRRR ! Kay stop Syah ! Hahaha .

Kkay now , i am abit sot at hubby cinta as the pics yesterday . There are more actually . Sedih paaa people ? He uploaded it at FB . Haiss . Don't know what to say as don't want to get a fight with him . Today i suke perah minyak . Maybe because tgh first day kn . Hope he phm . I can get really sensitive easily .

Dh luh . No mood to update . Till ltr then aites ? Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALS ! ♥

p/s : Just don't !

2010-12-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

Heyloo Korngs !

How are you ? Hope you guys had a great day . Nothing bad happened . My day was great luh . Today just lpk and eat at RM . At around 2 , mummy asked m bring Dina out . Asyiqin was there too . So brought both of them out . We went to RM and eat . Asked Andy , Ari and Yan to come and meet me at Mac . So they did . After eating , went to 188 . Then suddenly , it was pouring . Bad day siaa . Today the rest went swimming . Even hubby cinta . Then the two girls wanted to go to the toilet . So rushed to Andy's house and decided to lpk there . The kids were playing while the rest , we watched ghost movie . Scary but fun . Then my maid fetched them home while me , continue lpk uh . Ate at Andy's house . Then went down to 188 . Hubby wasn't there but the rest was . So just slack around . Then AJ showed me a picture of him and Shira kissing . Haha . Kembang jap member . Of course luh . That was his first real lip kiss . Hahaha . So happy for you AJ ! (: Then he showed me the rest of the pic for today . Suddenly he went fast at a picture . So i asked him to go back to that pic . So he did . And guessed what ? It was a picture of hubby cinta putting his hands on Shira's hips . So shocked and there was a punched in my heart , and my face totally changed . I've just gave them a fake smile . AJ and Krishna noticed it and asked me wheter i'm okay . I just nod my head . But they know that i am not . So AJ explain to me everything . I just say i okay and i understand the situation . But still i am jealous . Sedih biler tgk he put his hands around Shira hips . Almost cried but not for AJ . Soon hubby cinta came with Irwan , Iz , Shira and Nana . Salam the rest except hubby cinta first . Like sakit hati gytu but just tahan . Then i salam hubby cinta and gurau2 with him luh . After that i went home and talk to mummy and here i am . Waiting for hubby cinta's called while msging Imran .

Kkayluh . Gtg . Till tomorrow yea ? Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALS ! ♥

p/s : Bhy , please call me !

2010-12-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

Hey korangsss ! haha. sorry for not updating blog for so damn long . Haha . Busy and abit malas . but now tk busy sgt . so probably everyday update luh . i know some of my frens miss my blog . Haha . kadang2 they complain itu ini luh . So the irits kkay ? so now i've update my blog , jdi dok diam2 . haha .

Let's talk about my life , my life is normal . With my family and frens by my side , everything is just perfect . My FAMALIA is always there by my side . And i just feel comfortable with them as they are like a family to me . We always have plans to go out to other places and doing other activites . If hari2 lpk , cfem MENDAQ !! Haha . So instead lpking and buat keje dh berfaedah langsung , by going out and doing healthy activities really gives us no harm . Haha .

My hubby cinta ? Hmmm.. Still okay with him . No big fights yet . Just small fights je . Tell me , which relationships tkde gadoh kn ? Mesti ade nye . Hehe . That time hubby went to Malaysia . I also luh . But we went on different days but on the same week . So i have to sacrifice not to meet him for 6 days . Merana gyler . Cried everynight as i really do miss him . When he came back , of cox i meet him and he bought me neckalace in a shape of a heart , a lighter which is the same as him (if i am not wrong it is a ZEPO lighter ) and a keychain which our name on it . So sweet taw . Hehe . All i know that is enough to tell me how much he loves me . Hehe .

Currently now i am just relaxing and doing nothing . Waiting for mummy to cook . Masak ketam ! OOOOOOO !! I lioke ! hahaha . Sambil2 tu i am still waiting for my one and only cinta to msg me as since morning he tak txt me . Entah dh bgn ke blm . Maybe i should call him later . haha . Kkay . Thats all i have for today . Till tomorrow , INSYALLAH . Byes !

- Syahsyah Sayang UOALZ !

p/s : Akan Ku Bawa Kau Terbang Bersamaku ♥

2010-11-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

Happy first monthsary Hubby Cinta . Thanks for loving me all this while . I really love u and will never leave u again . The past is the past and i won't let it haunt me again . U're the first guy that ever be with me this long . If we didn't broke up , probably we will be 9 months plus together . But , heck cares . As long as i am still with u now , i am happy . I am thankful that this time we are really serious and i hope we won't fight and quarell kay bhy ? I love u so the very much and hope u do too . Once again , AISHITERU hubby ! ♥

Hey guys , sorry for not blogging for a looooooonng time . hehe . been busy and etc . simply now my life is soo damn wonderful . i've met new frens and how i love my 188 famalia . i really love them and i wouldn't want to be separated from them especially AJ , Andy , Krishna , Irwan , Fikal , Andy , Ari , Iz , Yan , Akim , Ash , Abang An . They're my life and if tkde drng , maybe i mati . and of cox not forgetting my one and only love , Awid syng ! she bnyk help me nowdays and in return , i'll help her . dh lame nvr meet her . Rinduu siottss !! Awid bby , biler nk tron ? i miss u luhh babe ! *muke sad2* . And i can also nvr be separated from my hubby cinta . haha . Cinta sejati tuhhss !!
holidays abit bored but bcoz of my famalia , it's abit okay luh . haha . ltr on going out . so i planned to go to sleep now . very tired lioawss . haha . update blog soon ! byes !

- syahsyah sayang kamu !

p/s : Jangan pisahkan aku dan dia ♥

2010-10-25T10:14:00.002+08:00

hey..sorry for not blogging for so long..haha..

kkay..today no school..and ltr am going to the gym with hubby and Aj all..they all also planned to go..haha..kecoh pe..now i am just waiting for hubby to text me when he dh betol2 bgn or mandi or something..haha..smlm me and hubby ade naughty2 sikit while OTP..haha..hubby suke gyler !! haha..now i sumpah tgh lpr !! i tk tau whether i shld eat or not ? hmmm.. can eat right ? haha..langgar je luh..perot dh lpr..nk buat ape kn..ltr if i nvr eat and then i exercise , cfem i faint nye..i punye orng need energy to exercise...kalau tk lemah..haha..so i better eat..sumpah i boring and don't know wat to update u guys about..haaha..btw , this saturday gonna watch TFC or The Fabulous Cats consert at Esplanade..it will strt at 10 pm..haha..i love them..love them alot..still can remember last year i got to meet them face to face somemore..haha..planned to watch the concert with Su , Amyrawr and Erawrr...so just waiting for them to give me green light..if they okay , i give them the tickets..haha..

kkayluh , i wanna eat..jap lgy nk gy gym..haha..bye !

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : Hubby , I love u forever ! ♥

2010-10-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

hey guys..

just now had a great time with hubby , Su and hubby , Ayie and wifey and Iki and hubby..i've planned this picnik since last week..at first i planned it to be me and hubby je..but then to make it fun , i'v invited the rest..tdi 3+ , meet hubby and Akim first..then we lpk2 jap..we talk2 about 188 and all..then talked about Erawr..Akim asked hubby if he have the chance to be with Erawr , does he want..then hubby say yes..i dgr and tros majok..sedih sehy biler hubby ckp mcm tu..hubby pujok2 me..he say he maen2 je and blah3..at last he plak majok..haha..so i say i forgive him and then joke around..meet Shida , Su and Izaac outside my house..then i masak cpt2 and told hubby to go to 142..the three ladies plus Izaac , we siap2 the things and went out..we went to carpark last floor and prepared everything before hubby , Akim and Iki naek..when they reached , hubby was quite surprised actually..then i asked hubby to closed his eyes..so he did with the helped of Akim..i stand in front of him and he was shocked..haahaha..klakar luh hubby..then i gave him a box..inside was some of my things which i gave him and 20letters for him to read at home..he mcm bdak2 biler dpt present tu..haha..then wait for Yan and Ayie..lmbt sehy drng..after they come , then we eat..after eating , hubby sang me the song "Mimpi Indah"..i nk cry sehy..so romantic and sad..haha..then we play couple games..best..this is to show and tell how much do we love our couple..at 6+ , everyone except me , Yan , Su and hubby..we lpk2 jap..then hubby nak kene balek..so i say bye2 to him..he was hugging me tightly as he was touched i think..haha..then the three of us waited for Ayie..after he came , we packed up and left..they went to 188 while me , i went home..

hubby ppaed low..his sisters nk pakai home phone..so tonite he tk call me..sedih sikit luh..but nvm..all i knw bsk i wanna spent time with hubby at least..i really miss him sehy..smlm tk dpt lpk..and today jumpe pun skjap je..harap2 bsok dpt jumpe hubby lame sikit as hubby tk skola and maybe i am going to skool..still thinking shld i or shld i not..haha..

kkayluh..tats all i have..bye !

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : Don't ever leave me ♥

2010-10-19T13:44:00.002+08:00

hey guys..

today is the 19 and that means it's Sya[A]cap 9 months tk menjadi..haha..itu yng tk menjadi..yang menjadi blm sampai lgy..haha..it's quite a waste sehy...but all i knw is we really love each other and this time will make sure our love will last forever..

today i have something planned for him..i will be giving him a surprised too..so just wait and see wat is his reaction ltr..ltr cfem i update about today's surprised..not now luh..ltr kalau he bace how ? bukan surprised lgy kn ? haha...

currently am listening to songs while chatting with Hasif Nitro and Aziq's sis , Wani..i miss Hasif Nitro luh sehy...haha..he lost his phone..No , his mum lost his phone..haha..so my num semue he hilang..haha..no wonder no news from him..haha..to hubby , jangan jealous taw..haahaa..tkot sehy hubby jealous kalau bace..mampo aku nnti ! haha..

kkayluh..update u guys tonite..bye !

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : Kita bercinta hingga ke syurga ♥

2010-10-18T11:18:00.003+08:00

hey guys..

today no school for me..and i am excited as my dad came home yesterday night..but ltr then i meet him..now i am just waiting for him as i wanna go make passport..haha..Mdm Latha asked for it by today..she pressurized me alrdy..so must go A.S.A.P..Sumpah now i tgh bored..nothing to do siaa..some more it's raining..haiss..hubby plak tk tau gy mane..he called me just now but i don't know kalau he balek or lpk..tmrw i feel like don't want go school..mcm bored gytu..haha..prangai uh syahsyah...haha..btw , wanna congrats Inaa Toraa and Pipit..haha..dorng dh std luhh sehyy..haha..lastlong kaay ? haha..tdi called Myrawr..wanna asked her about Erawr..NBCB siaa bile dpt tau asal Erawr sad2..F-uck tat guy luh siaaa...Erawr sanggup tunggu die and be with him walaupun dh break but now he buang Erawr bile dh ade pmpn laen..i went to see the girl's pic..Sumpah Erawr lgy seribu kali cantik and lawa dari pmpn tu saaak..

so to Erawr , be strong dear..don't sad2 sgt..if i were u , i will delete all my memories with him and move on..it's hard but trust me dear , he's not for u..u don't deserve him..u are pretty and beautiful..bnyk lgy lelaki nk kn kau..petik je jari , cfem ramai yng beratur..haha..trust me dear , it's not worth waiting for guy like him..he's just using u when he doesn't have anyone..lgypun he said that u're the one yng at fault..why must u still be there for him when he said tat to u ? remember dear , be strong..i will alwaes be there for u..even Myrawr and Wani too..S.H.A.S will alwaes be with u dear..ingt niey je , kumbang bkn seekor..skali pergi , seribu yng dtng..and i'm sure there's someone even better out there for u..i will alwaes love u dear..

so to girls out there , just be careful..i just hate to see a girl being hurt by a guy..we girls do have dignity..just don't let these guys hurt us..

kkayluh..gtg..meeting my dad soon..bye !

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : You are my LOVE ♥

2010-10-15T21:04:00.003+08:00

hey guys..

so today was my last paper..Physics uhh beb ! haha..but i can do it luh..haha..i end paper at 9.15..hubby habes lmbt..but i got briefing on the Australia trip..went with Nyza for the briefing at 10.15..excited beb ! me and Nyza bet on something..tu biar kite due je yng tau !! haha..after briefing , plan to meet also as he told me smlm he finishes at 10.30..so me and Nyza waited him at Mac Kovan..haha..i can walk alrdy luhh !! haha..but still hurt abit..Nyza waited for 12 noon as got MacValue..hubby came soon after we buy our food..kesian hubby..lpr rupenye..haha..after eating and joking around , Nyza sent me and hubby to take a cab..kite due gy lpk at 188..at first tk ramai..cox AJ semue going gym..hmph !! haha..but then ramai dtng..lpk2 mcm biase then joke2 around with hubby..hubby cute plus irits..haha ! then i sit down and wrote "somethings"..to hubby , if u are curious , just wait kay bhy ? haha..then hubby sang a song..haha..he's making a song for me luhh sehyy..haha..but dari tdi hubby cume dpt chorus je..haha..verse blm dpt kot..tk tau plak skrng..haha..went back at 6+..hubby tk antar me home as he was searching for lyrics..haha..still no idea luh tu..haha..Akim and Su accompany me home..Akim take LRT while Su follow me home..at my hse , watch TV and eat with Su..miss those moments sehyy..haha..

kkayluh..wanna watch TV and wait for hubby to call me..i've been waiting since just now..tk call2 pun..hmph !! ltr i majok with hubby baru die tau..dh luh smlm buat me bbl SENDIRI..marah tawww !!!

to hubby : u kalau call and maen game sambil bbl ngn i , i tkkn bbl ngn u lgy..this is a warning taw bhy ! tk klakar taw u buat i mcm smlm..sedih taww !! ):

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : No one can take you away from me ♥

2010-10-14T20:29:00.003+08:00

hey..see tat guy ? he's my "hubby" kedua..haha..no luhh..he is Naz..he's the guy who had "helped" me with hubby..he is the one who planned to make hubby jealous dulu and he is the one who bnyk helped me in getting hubby dulu..haha..now i have hubby and still making hubby jealous by "kissing" AJ..haha..hubby sumpah cute bile jealous..so suke uh tgk..haha !

just now i have art paper..setakat drawing je..haha..hubby today first2 tk amek..so after paper , i went to the canteen..sat with Alia and Fyfyie..then i called hubby..he say tat he will amek me at tmpt biase..so just slacked at canteen..after tat went out and meet Areena..Alia went home..so me Fyfyie and Areena lpk2 at mamak shop..then hubby came with Thiru and Danish..so we asap jap and then me , hubby , Thiru and Danish take cab to 188..Fyfyie and Areena went somewhere else..haha..then lpk2 and , and , and , I CAN WALK !! haha..thnks to Zaidan..he supported me all the way..but my leg hurts..but heck care coz practise makes perfect..haha..then Su came..i was kinda pissed coz she nvr tell me she tindik..so i just sat in the hall..when i bored , i kluar and i saw Seri..missed her damn fucking much !! haha..story2 with her and then went home..still didn't talk to Su sgt..pissed off wat..sorry Su..but it's just tat i am pissed tat u didn't tell me u gonna tindik and i don't like my girlfriends to tindik..

tats all i have..wanna gegar hubby's phone..haha ! bye !

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s : I wouldn't want to change a thing now ! ♥

2010-10-12T21:39:00.003+08:00

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hey guys..officially he's mine..hahaha..didn't expect this to happened this fast..but i'm happy..on the 10.10.10 at 10pm , i'm officially his and his mine..so Sy{A}cap forever ! haha..

to hubby{♥} : bhy , thnks for wanting me and loving me back..i hope this time we can last..i really love u and i knw u do..kan bhy?hehe..i janji this time i won't repeat those mistakes and hope u won't too..i can't bear to loose u anymore..i really love u and i am glad to have u back bhy..i will be proud to introduce u too everyone as my hubby..even we're not officially married..haha..but i want to be married to u..hahaha..angan-angan but bley jdi kenyataan kn bhy?heehee..lastly , i will always love u bhy..kitabercinta hingga ke pintu syurga..♥

kkay..that's about my relationship status..haha..exams are almost over..yaaaay !! but my leg still hurts..mcm makin terok pun ade..issshhhhkkk !! bingit sehy...every night i have to go through this pain..my leg is swelling like hell..haixxx..hope it well get better soon..soon tu tk tau bile..haha..tmrw will be having Maths Paper 2 and hubby will fetch me fron school after like two days tk amek..hahaha...happy siot..but i miss going to skool with hubby..haixx...byler bleyy lgy ehy? hmmmm...haha..tpi niey hubby tk call2 pun..tdi call him and plan nk talk before my tution strt...but he tk angkat..he called back when my tution nk strt -.- ...wth ! haha..now i call2 die , he tk angkat..tido or wat? haha..tk kesahluh..i'm happy and tired..haha..today celebrate Abang An nye Birthday..all i , Awid and Su masak..haha..naseb habes..my own recipe maaah ! haha..kayluh..wanna rest and gegar my hubby's phone..haha..

bye !♥

- syahsyah sayang kamu ♥

p/s: True love ♥

2010-10-10T13:06:00.003+08:00

hey..sorry for not blogging..

latest news about me , i've injured my leg..boo-hooo !! sad sia..i can't walk properly and i can't go out alwaes..haixx..how it happened ? i just don't wanna share..hahaha..but i just wanna say thank you to Acap for being there for me during tat incident..he was the one who brought me to the hospital with his mum and brought me home..the next day , Acap , Su and Yan fetched me from school..thanks guys..but Acap and Su have helped me alot these few days..both of them offered to fetch me home from school and 188..i still lpk..but for a while only..i also must say thanks to Naz , Aj , Ari and Aizil for carrying me when i was at 188..thanks for ur concerns..i really didn't expect tat this will happened..now i've susahkan everyone..but i am greatfull to have all of them..the care and love everyone gave me really woke me up and make me cry..i really love all of them..especially my mum and dad..they were the ones worried for me..my mum sent me to school every morning and offered to fetch me from skool too...i love all of them..without them , i don't think i can survived..i love u guys !! ♥

- syahsyah sayang kamu

p/s : I'm still waiting , love . ♥

2010-10-03T12:03:00.004+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not blogging again..internet was down..haixx..

kkay..this few days did nothing..spent time with my TTM , Acap and the rest of famalia..yesterday was my darling Qeisya 1st Birthday Party..it was held at ECP chalet..haha..had fun..got balloon twisting..haha..prangai mcm bdak2..but it was soo cute..got elmo , tweety bird and lots more..haha..then i feel boring..so went to play with Qeisya..she wants to sleep..but can't..haha..then Acap call me..so otp with him sampai die pnt..i can't stop kacau2 die..haha..he's jealous of me having a boyfriend..haha..actually , me and Nas plan to act tat we're together in front of them..just to see Acap's reaction..haha..first2 Acap was like i don't care type..then tat nite he called and say he's jealous..haha..i was laughing like hell..and he say he will be relieve if it was "not real"..haha..lgy luh i laugh..haha..but he shld always knw tat my love is only for him..no one else can replace tat..hahaha..so back to yesterday , i kacau him aje..cute luh when he jealous..haha..jealous tandanye sayang..haha..went back home yesterday at 12am..then played Monopoly with my sis..haha..the new version..tkya use money..use card..haha..then Nas called me..so otp with him sambil maen Monopoly..then Erawr came for a while..then went to Ibu's house...otp with Nas until 5 am..haahaa..i fall asleep first..haha..then bgn at about 10+..look at hp , Acap txted me..haha..pelik jgk..tk pernah2 msg dulu..haha..

now i am currently listening to a song titled "Kalau Cinta" by Aliff Aziz and Joanne..haha..and chatting with Su..kite tgh talk about something luh..haha..kay luh..gtg..mls nk blog lame2..haha..Bye !

- syahsyah♥

p/s : There's only YOU !

2010-09-26T01:58:00.002+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not updating for so long..been busy with raya at lots of things..

see tat pic up there? tats my beloved 188 famalia..i still contacting with Erul all tat..but i still am comfortable with 188 famalia..FYI,i broke up with Fared..so now i'm single..back to phase 1..hahaha..why i broke up with Fared? it's because i just can't love him..my heart can't fall in love with anyone..this is the truth..let Allah and some of them knw why i can't fall in love anymore..so overall had a great raya..get to collect duit raya and most important , HAVE FUN !! haha..yesterday i had an open house..it's for my frens..i am really shocked tat lots of them came..thanks guys..especially thanks to my Yuying members , 188 Famalia , Pipit , Taufik , Amyrawr , Afifah , Su and those of them who's my fren's frens..haha..really appreciate it lots..i'm quite sad tat Erul semue nvr come..haisss..wat to do kan? haha..

SAAAAAAAPPPPP !! hahaha..see tat pic?tats my ex kesyngan and my one and only TTM love..we're okay now..thanks to 188 Famalia for making me realised tat it's important for me to forgive him..but , i still can't forget wat he had done..as wat they say " Girls can forgive but can't forget . " it's true..i will think twice to put high hopes on him..all i knw nw is tat , i'm soo in love with my TTM..the only one..haha..but we're not attached okaay? don't think wrong..188 Famalia all thinks we're attached..but sorry..we're only TTM..we're still not ready and needs time..all i knw is tat , this time i won't leave him ever again..and i hope he won't leave me too..all i need is him and my 188 Famalia..this also includes my kekasih sejati , Suhada..or Ros Suhada Bte Azhar..haha..

kkay..tat's all i have..will update u soon..Bye !

- syahsyahirah ♥

p/s : only HE knws .

2010-09-11T18:59:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri guys ! to all muslims and muslimins , syahsyah inging mintak maaf atas segala kesilapan dan kesalahan syahsyah selame ini..jikalau syahsyah ade tulis kt blog syahsyah yng buruk2 pasal korng atau terkurang ajar , syahsyah ingin menyusun sepuluh jari kepade korng..kepada family syahsyah , abah & umi , kakak mintak maaf kalau selame ini ade saketkn hati umi dan abah..kakak manusia biase jgk yng slalu buat salah dan silap..kakak mintak maaf dan semoga umi & abah boleh maafkn kakak..to all my frens , syahsyah mintak maaf jgk kalau terkasar bahase dgn korng..syahsyah syng korng semue ! syahsyah cintakn family syahsyah the most ! ♥

see the pic ? haha..tats my one big family..only one family is not there..but still , its a big family luh kn..haha..i really enjoy the first day of raye..its so enjoyable..but i was sad too..i miss my dad and i can't celebrate this joyous day with him..but at least i get to talk to him and ask for forgiveness through the phone..i told my mum about my CA2 results..she was happy with it..at least i improved my marks by a lot ! haha..my mum was proud of me..so to this particular "Guest" , please stop making sacarstic remarks on my tagboard..please leave ur real name if u think i knw u and u knw me so well..it's my blog and i can update about anything tat i want..let me tell u this , i love my family and friends..without them , my life is meaningless..why am i always with my friends ? it's bcoz u don't knw my family situation..so please don't make any remarks about why am i always with my friends instd of my family..i spent times with both and nvr will forget both parties okaaay ? tats all i have for u..thank u btw for reading my blog.. appreciaten it lots..

Kayluh..gtg..wanna watch tv and lpk2 with Su at my living room..once again , SELAMAT HARI RAYA MINAL AIDIL WALFAIZIN ! ♥

- syahsyah ur sweetiepie

p/s : Aku sayang kau bodoh ! ♥

2010-09-08T18:56:00.002+08:00

~08.09.10~

hey guys..see tat guy in tat pic? he's my baby bear..haha..yes he is my mataey..i love him and he loves me too..i love his sincerity,care,concerns and mostly his heart..i hope i can latlong with my baby bear..haha..i want congrats Erul and Anierya as they also std on the same date too..haha..so same anni luhh niey..hmph ! watsover , lastlong ye korngs ?! =D

kkay..today nvr lpk coz i need go salon..kene do my hair..haha..wanna see? cannot ! blueks ! haha..just wait for my update on raye ye? haha..baby bear went to Johor..so tk meet him..i did something new to my hair..haha..i sooo love it !! hehehe..mlm maybe i lpk if they lpk..if not , i just duduk rumah and sleep lorh..now i sumpah tgh blur..dnt knw wat to update lgy..haha..kayluh..till ltr okaaays?

bye2 !

- syahsyah ur sweetiepie

p/s : Only him !

2010-09-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

Ros Suhada Bte Azhar..my kekasih hati..we just met about 3 months ago..and now we are like lovers..i can't be away from her , so does she..there's something in her which i feel proud off..the way she advice ppl , lyn ppl and love ppl..but sometimes her luck isn't always there..there are times which she fails..tat is to have "LOVE"..the perfect love..her naseb and mine is the same..we keep on falling on with the wrong guy..but tat is life..we just remain strong..i can't live without Su around me..she's my one in a million friend..she always be there when i need her..all i can say she is soo special..orng blm knl die can't judge her like tat..he's not the typical minahreps..she's different..she will always give us the support if we need it..like now..i really am strting to fall for this guy..but there she is trying to help me and give me the support..but to my dear Su , i am about to give up..i am not meant to be with him..i think we shld just stick as frens..haha..so to those ppl who thinks tat Su is like blah , blah , blah , berdpn luh dgn syahsyah..if korng brani langgar die , langgar me dulu..kalau u guys nk rase pelempang mahal syahsyah , then silakan..i will be glad to hadiahkn to u guys..

2010-09-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

hey..

just came back from lpking..strted lpk at 4+..at Squarebox..fetch Myrawr first..then we went to Squarebox..there saw Erul semue..so lpk2..then Erul die jiwang2 sorng2..haha..WTH kn?haha..then bile dh nk buke puase , srng semue balek..so me and Myrawr went to her hse..then i txted Erul bile nk tron txt me..so he did..then went to wait for bus to go to 142..Myrawr kasi me bwk cookies die balek..so bwk luh..there saw Fared , Nabil , Khai , Erul , Ceped and Ajaq..salam2 them then lpk2..drng mkn cookies tu sampai habes..drng kate sdp..haha..gasak drng luh..kesian jgk tgk drng bedal cookies tu..haha..then Fared , Nabil and Ceped balek..so left the 4 of us..then kwn Erul , Mus dtng..soon Iman dtng..then drng kacau me..especially Erul , Ajaq and Mus..tpi Ajaq and Erul paling itating..mcm nk bgy je penampar mahal syahsyah..hahaha ! then they kacau Mus..they play the coin joke..hanya yng tertentu tau je..haha ! i laugh my ass out luh siaa ! hahaha ! sejak lpk ngn Erul semue balek , my hobby is to iritate ppl and always boring duduk rumah..haha..KAN ! drng dh jampi2 syahsyah..haha..tpi niey , i ngah majok ngn drng..pasal ape? pasal drng buli me..sedih kn? Grrrrrrrr ! tkpe2..ade hari nnti syahsyah balas..haha..so to Erul , Mus and Ajaq , just standby guys ! hahaaha ! evil sehyy syahsyah..kkayluh..going to post about someone whom i really cinta mati dgn die nxt..so just wait taw..haha ! BYEEE !

-syahsyah ur sweetiepie

p/s : Jangan pandang rendah kt pmpn ye guys ?

2010-09-06T01:17:00.002+08:00

suddenly my hearts is strting to fall for someone..but i control the feelings..i just don't want to get hurt..i am trying my best not to be hurt and so..i sayang u..but i just don't want it to be a one sided love like i used to experience..i am really controlling this feeling..i don't want to love u..as i will surely get hurt..i want u back..but it seems tat it's useless..u make my days brighter now..each and every single second i am laughing and am smiling just because of u..ur care and concerns really touched me..but soon reality woke me up once again but earlier this time..before i can drowned in my dreams..now i realised tat it's not me who make u change ur mind to be in love..it's some other lucky girl..but i am fine with it..i've realised tat we are meant to be frens and not more rite?our story has ended about a year ago..and i knw u won't want to be with me again but u will stay as my fren..please do not leave me..i will always need u my fren..i will accept the fact tat we are meant to be frens and not more..i am happy for u tat at last someone really did opened ur heart to be in love again..i really want to meet tat girl..now all i have to do is to stay single..i don't want to wait and chase ur love as i don't want to be hurt like i used to be..i am lucky tat i am not too late..or else , i think i will get hurt so badly..so boy , i will always be there for u dear fren.. (:

2010-09-05T19:49:00.003+08:00

hey guys..

let me give u ap proper update luh..lately these few days did nothing..just lpk with Erul semue..last Thursday ,i kene saman same HSA luhh..bkn saman luh kot..first time kene maah..haha..then mlm tu Su nk kasi Acap balek his keychain..but i tknk ikot..she pakse2 me..then i ikot je luh..when she gave back alrdy , Andy tahan kite and kite so called gadoh..then perkataan "PELACUR" terkluar..after tat tkpe..kes dh bleyy tutup..then on Firday , Andy nk jumpe..die kate ade benda nk bbl..then i go..sane kene lgy rabak with them..gadoh punye gadoh..then i cnt tahan my feeling..tibe2 nanges coz didn't expect they sanggup maki2 me..then i meet Erul semue bwh my blok..they asked me asal i cry semue..then i story ngn drng..i ckp tat Su mlm tu nk perang ngn drng..then they pun nk extra2 jgk..after tat , txt Su , tanye if she still want go Geylang..she say okaay..then i went home and siap..tron balek mintak tolong Aciik belikn me rokok..then i naek LRT to meet Su , Erul and Ajaq at CP..but then me and Su decide to meet them at Paya Lebar je..so we did luh..tunggu drng lmbt gyler...haha..thenkite tunggu kwn Erul , Kim..he's Korean..haha...tpi bley bbl melayu...cool kn?haha..after Kim dtng , we jalan2..then kite masuk Joo Ciat Complex..the saw Erul jalan kt Inaa Toraa..i tarik Su jalan belakang..then tanye Erul if Inaa joining us..he say tak..then kite gy Geylang Makan House..we buke kt tangge..buke air and rokok je..then we makan..me and Su share Soto Ayam..then Erul blanje mkn Satay luhhh..haha..gerek kn? all the way kacau2 Erul abng tempang international ! hahah ! then after mkn, gy cari baju Su then me and Su gy Sengkang balek nk perang luh gytu..then Su pk2 balek..so we tk jdi tron..tpi3 , bile kite dh sampai Bakau station , we find out tat Aciik and Fared dh bbl ngn drng..so we duduk pt Squarebox..tunggu Aciik and Fared..then they citerkn ape jdi semue..they say semue tembak name Akim..then mlm tu called Erul bilang die citer..he want to knw..then otp dgn die sampai 2.30 pgy..gyler kn? haha..then yesterday , lpk2 mcm biase , tpi tat nite , Akim cari hal with me..gadoh jap kt FB..ak him to jatuh kn time and place...planned nk settle bsk..then today jgk jumpe..first2 i talk with him..then Fared back-up me..then Erul semue dtng..Erul tgh mrh..lgy sikit pecah muke Akim..but then i tarik2 die..he only pok name die sape..Akim tros blank..then bbl2/gadoh2 , after tat i slap him..so kes dh tutup..unless drng nk buka balek..tk tau ehy..haha..after kes semue settle , me and Su balek my he while the others lpk at Squarebox..we do kuih then buke etc..after tat sent her home and ternmpk Pipit and Ajaq..antar Pipit gy 142..there saw Erul , Iman , Mark , Nabil and Suhail.. Kaaan ! drng nk itating threading kening drng..haha...

kkay luh..gtg..nk buat kuih lgy..haha..tmrw update again ye? bye2 !

- syahsyah ur sweetiepie

p/s : Buka Hatimu !

2010-09-05T11:49:00.002+08:00

Hey..see those pics up there? those guys are the one now who always be by my side..thnks ro Erul who ajak2 lpk ngn drng dulu..so now dh kirekn rapat gyler with them..Erul , Pipit , Ajaq , Aciik , Fared , Iman and bnyk lgy , thnks for the support , care and concern towards me and Su..Even we just knw each other(except for Erul , Ajaq and Aciik luh kn) , we dh rapat like family gytu..i am so happy to have u guys as my frens..korng nye gyler2 and nonsence bnyk buat me and Su ketawe2 sampai perot saket..haha..korng nye semangat to something but me and Su mcm bangga ngn korng gytu..haha..overall thnks for wanting to lpk with me and Su..and also helping us at times when we need the help..now korng luhh CINTAs syahsyah..haha !!syahsyah sayang korng selalu !!

to my ex-CINTAs ; korng pk lps korng dh maki aku and su kau bley lps?dh maki lps tu nk tolak balak kt satu brader korng..tpi itu kpe pasal korng dh anggap kes tutup..tpi niey , brader ksyangan korng , Akim , ape hal nk bsr2 hal masalah? nk kate tk maki ? bley gy jalan uhh ! nk bahasekn orng kt FB pulak tu ! pk die sorng je bleyy buat ?! HAH !! syahsyah pun bley pun luhh !! dh bgos orng nk leraikn masalah niey ! tpi disebabkn tu jantan sial yng dh buat aku panas , aku terpakse settle kn dgn die !! ape yng nk jdi , jdi luh !! aku tk kesa ! yng aku tau , aku nk tampar mulot jantan sial tu yang mcm longkang !! die brani langgar Su dulu kn ?! sekarang die dh langgar due2 !! tgk nnti sape menang dan sape jatuh !! perangai maseh adik2 uh !! atau YP !!

-syahsyah sweetiepie♥

2010-08-31T11:22:00.002+08:00

Hey guys ! Happy Teachers' Day to all Yuying teachers and staff as well as the other teachers out there..

today went to skool as per normal..let's story about yestersay and the day previous it..on Sunday , went to JB..buy baju kurung for Hari Raya..Best jgkluh..but then yesterday didn't go to skool..skip skool as very tired lioaa..then txt Erul..he surrender himself..sedih jgk..i was worried the whole day about him..but i am quite proud as he and the people who wa involved had surrendered themselves..so proud of u guys..then at night dpt tau from Fared tat semue dpt bail accept for Erul..i was like WTF and WHY..then Fared say tat bcoz of Erul punye kaki..then he say tat die lps but police kene escort gy hospital..happy tat Erul finally kluar and bley lpk ngn drng balek..but , but , but , they are on bail..kes blm selesai lgy..niey susah as they kene trn naek court..i don't want loose them luhh..haiss...

ltr going to Johor with Su and my mummy..haha..i blm mandi lgy..nk basahkn rambut..haha..kkayluh..nk go mandi..bye !

-syahsyah sweetipie

p/s : I really miss lpking with Erul semue !

2010-08-29T06:15:00.002+08:00

heyhey..it's early in the morning , i am sleepy but can't sleep..-.-

haha! yesterday went to T3...planned to go Johor..but because of the time and my nenek which no ones wants to look after as they all want go Johor also , we planned to stay in Singapore and just buke luar..first2 planned to go ECP..let my Dina lpkn her gian playing her skuter..but then it was 5+ going to 6...so my mum planned go to Changi Airport T3 to walk around and buke..at 6.30 , we search for a place to buke..and guessed wat ? all the placed are full..mood tros tukar..then we decided to go to Simpang Bedok as it's alrdy buke time and there's no more place at tat whole Changi Airport..otw back to T3 , the YOG atheletes from Austria are going back home..then i spotted one of this mat salih guy..he kept looking at me and i kept looking at him..first2 ingt nk senyum..but taaaak naaaak luhh ! haha..then at last he smiled at me in a flirty way..so i smiled back and told everyone about it..hahaha ! semangat pe syah ..then went to Simpang Bedok..there get to eat..haha..ate alot eventually..then dessert time ! tried something new..nice taaw...haha..don't want share wats tat dessert..pandai2 cari tau ye ? haha..ltr i wanna go shower and siap2..my mum says at 8 , semue dh nk kene siap and dh bley kluar..my leg got blister siaaa..ltr wanna POP it..haha..so can wear shoes..haha ! kkayluh..nothing to update..ouh ! the pic above was taken on Friday..Bazaaar time ! haahaa..from the left , thoe guys sitting are , Hasif Nitro , Afai RX-Z , their friend which i don't knw his name and Acap..those standing are , syahsyah , Mir and Su..haha..syahsyah nak aje menyelit..haha..kkay luh..bye2 !

-syahsyah sweetiepie

p/s : Wanna be in love with a mat salih in future .

2010-08-27T23:51:00.002+08:00

hey guys..just came back from bazar..had a great day..

just now went to skool..went home straight after tat..plan to take a nap..reached home at about 1+..check FB and twitter then went to sleep..tired siaa..then Fared Bear called me..he ajak lpk..so i mandi and siap2..45 minutes siaa..haha..drng bising..then found out from Su and Mir tat Acap pun nk join..ALAMAK !!dh luhh i hate him..then they expect me to see his face..sooot je ! mcm nk cancel je and follow Nyza semue..but then pk2 balek , just go aje..at 5+ , headed to Geylang..met Su at Paya Lebar MRT..then we go to Sing Post to buke at LJS..reserved seat and order our food o tak pack ltr..then Mir and Acap dtng..trus i soot !tk bbl with him langung..just diam2 je..then Su try to make me talk to him..so talk gytu2 je..tk ikhlas luhh..haha! then saw Nyza and Syafiq masuk Pastamania..went there and saw Cikgu Syazwani..salam her and talk2 jap..then went back to LJS pasal dh buke..haha.mkn semue..then saw Arief , Aziq and Ayuz..Ayuz wave at me..so i wave back..Aziq sombong gylerr...hmph ! after eating , went to Pastamania to say bye2..planned to join them after eating..then i say to Nyza , just calling2 me je..after tat went to lpk2 outside and jalan2 at Bazaar..when dh pnt , we lpk2 at Eunos Road 5 sane..we lpk2..then Afai RX-Z called..he tanye kite kt mane..then i ckp luhh where were we..soon enough , Afai RX-Z dtng with his friends which i only knew 2..Abid and Hasif NItro..then we lpk2..amek gmbr semue..after tat we jalan2 at Bazaar lgy..then we slack2 belakang Bazar sane..i belanje Afai RX-Z semue burger..janji Afai RX-Z je..haha..but the ret pun nk..so just beli luh with Afai RX-Z..then planned buy something..so me and Su ikot Afai RX-Z and Hin tk slh..haha..we sesat 3 kali sehy..haha..at last sampai jgk..then we lek2 jap..i ask Hasif Nitro if can tumpang balek..but no helmet..lupe nk suroh drng bwk extra helmet..haha..but at last i take cab..haha..Su bingit dgn Acap coz he tetap nk naek satu cab with her..so i asked her to bersbr..wat to do kn..i reached home at 11+..now nk tron lpk jap..

haha..kayluh untill here..bye2!

-syahsyah sweetiepie

p/s : I want my Dendeng still !

2010-08-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

I wish i could still be like this baby..just strting to knw about life , about the world and most importantly the meaning of "LOVE" ..if i cld turn back time , i would like to be like this baby..still growing and still am small..this baby doesn't knw and experience anything..but as he grows , he will go through everything like wat we've teenagers gone through..but he is still small and fragile..he still yet need to learn every single thing..he needs to strt from the strt..haiisss..i just miss the times when i used to be like tat baby..now my life really means nothing..i've lost everything accept for Su and S.H.A.S..i've lost my one and only A's which is also my CINTAs..they mean alot to me..but then they're gone now..i just really missed them..i missed Andy and Yan the most..they're my everything..Acap?idk luhh..i missed him too..but then i force my self not to missed him..all i knw now is tat i am trying to move on from all of this..i am trying slowly..i want to be like tat baby..i want to strt a new like this baby..i want to learn everything from the strt..i want to be like the baby..

-syahsyah sweetiepie

p/s : i want be a baby !

2010-08-24T19:41:00.002+08:00

heyloo guys..

yesterday night i met up with Afai RX-Z..paisey sehy..all this time i thought his name was Apai..but it was Afai..haha..yesterday he msg me..he asked if want to lpk with him..i say where..then he say he meet me at my block..so i okaay luh..when he txt me , i went down..paisey jgk luhhh..ahaha..but then we talk normally..then we move to Acik's block..he say ramai orng jalan my block and bising..so he terpakse tolak his bike to Acik's block..i help him bwk his helmet..like mataey luh sehy..haha..we lpk2 at Acik's block..bnyk story..haha..lie mataey tgh dating gytu..taknak luh mataey ! haha ! at least get to knw him abit better..then at 10 , i went home.. kesian sehy die..he from camp sanggop balek then meet me straight..but skjap je..haha..he reached my block sepantas kilat luhh sehyy..haha..at home just txted Fared Bear..haha..Su bangga Acik panggil die baby..pasangan pembawa virus luhh drng..WTH btol kn?haha..

today , balek siang from skool..txt Erul..ask him lpk wat time..he say he lpk at 3..so i went home and sleep for a while..then he txted me..he complaint he alone..kesiannye die..so i wash my face and went down..saw Fared Bear..so we three lpk2 jap..siaal je Fared Bear kate die kacau us berasmaradana..-.-

then Fared Bear need to go to skool..so left me and Erul alone..Saaaaaap ! mendaq sesion strted..kite malu2 , segan and silu siaaaa...haha..when i diam , he also diam..then buka topik motor..Erul axcited he soon dpt enrol lesen motor..terpakse luhh lyn angan2 die..he say motor die motor KR..wow ! cool kepe..colour pun cantek sehyy..haha..Erul , nnti dh dpt lesen , bwk me jalan2 ye?haha...siang2 dh plan..then Pipit dtng..kene kacau lagy..sungguh irits..haha !then they both bbl pasal ape entah..i sit there ade bnyk big question marks on top of my head..haha..then at 6 went home..kene beli barang2 buke luhh sehyy..haha..today puase full..at last..naseb tk dihasut setan2 bwh blok..haha..when tgh buke , ibu came with Asyiqin..die nanges2..she say Zul and Amirul lari rumah..WTF ?! niey semue uncle Arshad punye pasal luh..dh pukul anak , die halau pulak..kesian bdak2 tu..tgh puase luhh..tpi lucky Amirul came my hse at last..tkya cari..hahaa...

sumpah tgh mendaq now..haha..nothing to post lgy..amcm i kacau2 si Su and Acik? nak? haha..sudah semestinye..haha..harap2 Su and Acik std luhh..dh strt panggil "Baby"...haha..sungguh menyampah..dh luh due2 pembawa virus..sungguh irits..haha..naseb pakai mask..this is supaye tk jangkit..haha..dh luhh..tknk kacau couple pembawa virus nieyy...diaaaam je syah ! haha !..kayluh..bye2 !

-syahsyah sweetiepie

p/s : Pembawa Virus ! Jage2 !

2010-08-23T13:58:00.002+08:00

lawa tak gmbr?haha..time tgh boring and nothing better to do , so we took pics aje luh kn..dh lame tk amek gmbr with Erul !haha..at last dpt jgk..the funny thing is Pipit..selame niey tk pena2 tegur or wat..then suddenly cn become close frens..class gytu..haha..when i think about it again , i really miss A's..but i am not part of them anymore..so Erul , Pipit , Aciik and the rest of their gang luh tmpt me lpk..Su pun dh join drng..let the reasons be to herself je kn..haha..now me and Su dh nekad no more love..we promise tat selagy lelaki kt dunia niey cnnt hargai pmpn , selgy tu we wont hargai drng..simple kn?haha..tapi skrng niey , tgh tunggu Su ngn Erul..si Erul niey tido mati luhhh !! txt pun tk reply..nnti semue dh tron , die je yng tron lmbt...apadaaa !! haha..for those of u yng think tat i dh ade pengganti A's semue , please stop tat thoughts..A's can't never be replaced..they will always be in my heart..i am with Erul's gang pun pasal i wanna try to forget them..i am trying as tat is wat they want..haiss...

now syahsyah tknak sadsad..me wanna be happy and crazy like Erul si tukang jahit ! haha..Wth?!Erul tulis kt blog die ckp me complainer gytu..sedih sehyy...bustard sehyy Erul..haha..but,but,he appreciate me and Su...Awwwww ! swit gytu ! haha..dh luh..

dnt knw wat to do..i wanna siap2 then mit Su... Bye !

- Syahsyah sweetiepie

p/s : No more love !

2010-08-22T19:16:00.002+08:00

LIES , LIES AND LIES ALL OVER AGAIN !!! ARGHHHHH ! why must it be so hard for u to understand uh Acap ? u think by lying to me , i will be okaay ? by making me putting high hopes for u , u think i won't be hurt ? i've trust u soo much..and wat is this ? u lied to my face again..i am trying not to be rude..but do u deserve this kindness from me? no u don't..for a guy like u , u don't deserve my kindness..i hate u soooo much now..after wat i heard , i have forgotten my love towards u..i just hate u soooo damn f-ucking much !! ARGHHHHH !!! as for u guys in A's , i am sorry if i have to leave u guys..the reason for my "flirting" perangai is just to forget my love towards Acap and to hurt him..but now i've realised..wats the point of me doing this?he doesn't feel anything..i'm really sorry guys..but i don't wanna hurt u guys anymore..i don't want to be ignored and hate by u guys..so this is why i leave u guys..sorry kalau syah menyusahkn hidup korng..after this , i won't be a burden to u guys..i will love u guys always..kalau sudi nk berbaek2 dgn syah , just txt me..i am still looking foward for our friendship to be back..i just love u guys so much..skrng Mir , Su and Syah akan bina hidup baru tanpa u guys..it will be hard for us to forget u guys..but we have too..

-syahsyah ur love

2010-08-21T03:10:00.002+08:00

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Semekar murni hatimu sayang .

Siang dan malam aku terbayang .

Kau istemewa buatku tenang .

Istemewa siang malamku terbayang .

Daku beikrar wahai puteraku .

Bina mahligai syahdu .

Kita berbulan madu di situ .

Ingin ku bawa kau ke awana .

Ingin bermadu kasih asmara .

Sepanjang hayatku curahkan cinta .

Sebenar-benar ucapan kata .

Kau istemewa oh , percayalah .

Ku perlu cintamu nan istemewa . "

this is for u Acap .

2010-08-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

we've make our decision..but is it the right decision for u?i don't want u to make the wrong decision again..if u truely love me , i am willingly to accept u back..i was so shocked tat we have tat conversation this morning..i thought u've forget all of our memories..but i am wrong..u in fact remembered..everything the most..the time u asked me to be urs..u even remembered the time..i've totally forgot about tat..u even remembered wat u gave me on every of our anni..first month u gave me one stalk of rose , second month u gave me two stalk of roses and third month u gave me three stalks of roses..u remembered it clearly and i was soo wrong..ouh gosh , we do mis those times..i also can't believe tat u want us to be like we used to be..am i dreaming or am i just imaganing stuffs?i just don't knw..it's too good to be true..the words u said this morning really makes me cry a thousand of tears..are u sure of those words?are u sure tat u still love me and u've just realised it now?are u sure to be back with me one day?are soo sure?it's not tat i don't believe u..but i just don't want u to force urself in doing this..wat i post in my blog is wat i feel..not to make u feel guilty and to love me back..if wat u say are true and u are soo sure about it , i am soo glad..our decisions are made..like wat i've said , i will still love u and wait for u..and u too say the same thing tat u will love me and wait for the rite time..at last i dh dgr kate putus dari u..i feel relief..i am glad tat i am still waiting for u..this time if we are together , i promise u tat wat happened in the past won't happened again..this time my love is only for u Mohd Asyraf..no one else can snatch this love away..only death do us apart..i love u soo much Mohd Asyraf and hope u will to..

2010-08-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

Suhada , my bestfriend and will always be..thnk Su for always staying by my side..we've known each other for almost 3 months..ince i've known u , i never think tat we can be this closed..and yet we still are even we fought..u're everything to me too..even if u're the caused of me and Acap broke up , but still , it's not ur fought dear..i've always love u and i won't stop doing tat untill i closed my eyes..ur love is soo strong to Yan..and i hope u guys will be back one day..i will make u guys be happy together again..i never slh kn u even if u are at fault..i am sorry to say this but i used to hate u..but my love is just so strong towards u..i just can't hate u dear..i just don't knw why..u've always gave me the strength to keep on living and trying..i want to see u happy..tats all..ur happiness is mine..and will always be..Su , don't ever leave me..now , u are my life too..u're just tat one special girl which i can't afford to loose..u're like the other half of me..if u're a guy , i think i will want to be with u..but u're a girl..haha..if u think by making the decision to leave me is the right thing , then u're wrong dear..if u leave , i will leave too..but this time forever..u knw wat i mean..so Su , thnks for loving me and always be by my side through thick and thins..i will always love u Ros Suhada !

2010-08-19T23:15:00.002+08:00

Happy 7 Months Tak Menjadi Acap !

today is the 19..if some of u knw wat happens on the 19 , i think u will be glad..to Acap , since the day we are together , u've lighten my days..we've gone through every ups and down throughout our first 3 months together..but then it stopped there..we broke up for some reasons..this year valentine's day , u brought happiness in me..i just gave u a card which was hand-made and brought Rauzan down for u..but in return , u've suprised me by singing the song "Mimpi Indah" and gave me a flower with a teddy bear..u really make me cry..ur kiss was the most wonderful present on tat day..and i am really happy..this year on my birthday , u've make me happy as u knw it's the date of my traumatic past..but yet , u make me happy and glad to have u as my darling..u're the first guy who gave me flowers on my birthday..i really appreciate tat alot..i really had the most wonderful birthday with u..one my birthday party , u stayed for the whole party..u slept throughout the two nights..i am really glad to have u as my boyfriend..i am glad tat my family likes u alot..u are really closed to them and u've made my sisters and cousin to accept u..u're the guy i've always been searching..but all of tat doesn't stay..after we broke up , i've known i've hurt u alot..i've move on faster then u..i knw i shl not have done tat..i am so sorry for tat..but after 1 month , i am closed with u again..we were soo closed tat people still thinks we are together..u still treat me like u always do..u've really make me happy even if tat time i have him..after i broke up with him , i was hoping to get back with u as he doesn't want me again..i want u back as i really love u and i knw tat u love me..i've remembered tat day when i wish u happy 6 months..u were in the hospital..i wa there beside u everytime to entertain u..but then , after u know her , things changed..ur love changed too..we've patch back for a while then u left again..this time by hurting me badly..i still can't forgive u..but yet i still be ur friend..i hope u will remember this date like i will always do..i just wanna say , thnks for this 7 months..thnks for being there with me even if it hurts me..thnks Acap..

2010-08-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

heyloo guys..just came back..penat sehy..

today no skool as got e-learning..woke up at 12..haha..tk buat e-learning..mampos babe !haha...today i puase..haha..best sehy..haha..one the comp..chat with Su dear and Aziq..tibe2..haha..after tat plan with her to buke luar..then we planned buke at Geylang..so i agree..then Andy call..suroh lpk..i siap2 then went out to mit Andy..saw Acap and Ari..so lpk2 jap..then at 4.30 , went to CP..Erul trn wrong timing sehyy..when i want jalan,he come..haha..Ari gave me a ride to CP..naek basikal..haha..then took the train and meet Su at Bishan..there saw Sakinah..my bestfriend from pri skool..haha..we reached Payar Lebar and then walk2 around..at around 6 , we cari tmpt mkn for buke..naseb tk pack at tat time..so we sit around at take pics..then at around 6.45 , order our food..tkot pack ltr..then it's true..haha..kite tgk mknan tu btol2 menguji kesbran..haha..then got mats2 there..we buat bdh je..haha..after buke , kite jalan2 jap then tron Sengkang..bile tron 297 , saw Abng An..he cpt2 sembunyi bwh meja..then i so called nk cari gadoh..lps slm die , i hugged him..miss him lots..haha..lpk2 and then when home..antar Su at CP then head home..pnt jgk..now just online and uploading pics..haha..kkayluh..i wanna post something special to two people..just wait and see..

-syahsyah ur love

p/s : Hanya ingin kau tahu .

2010-08-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

haisss...kini semuenye tinggal kenangan..it's impossible for me to get ur love anymore..i'm giving up on u..whenever i want to try , there's a voice saying , "Are sure u want him?Are sure u won't get hurt if u are with him again?He's not the guy tat u used to knw anymore."the voice keeps telling me this same thing whenever i think of getting u back..shld i or shld i not?i just don't knw..serious..having u around me now makes me feel like dying and crying..i feel akward with u now..not like last time..last time , we were so much like a couple even after we broke up..but now we are just like frenemies..u don't knw tat i still keep the flowers u gave me on my bday..it's been months..the flowers even are rotten..i always keep saying these to the flowers "walaupun kau telah layu , tetapi cintaku kepada Acap tidak akan pernah layu."everyday , i will see the flowers and keep on saying tat..hoping tat the flowers will bloom again like my love..but it just can't..the bear u gave me on valentine's day , i still keep it..nothing about u i throw away..ur pictures , ur gifts and ur love..but u have burnt my pictures..i am hurt by tat..i knw i used to hurt u..but i realised wat i did..but why mut u hurt me this bad?haiss...i jut want the u back..i miss him alot..i miss the u tat u ueed to be..i keep telling myself tat u are the one..but my heart just hurt badly whenever i say tat..why must it be hard for me?why?tell me please..words don't hurt this bad..but action do..ur action do hurt me badly..now , i just can't accept anyone yet..even if i accept , i don't do it bcoz i love him..but i do it bcoz i want to forget u..forget my love towards u..i will never throw away all of our memories..i've locked it inside my heart..it's much safer there..i will never burnt it down like wat u did to my pictures..my picture which symbolised my love towards u..haiss..i must forget u as it's totally impossible for me to have ur love again..it's really impossible..i am really sorry tat i can't forgive u..why?it's bcoz of ur doings and u never want to try..try to make me forgive u..u move on soooo fast..much faster than me..i'm really sorry but i have to forget u now..i've knw everything in ur heart..and i just want u to be happy and i want to have a happy life..will u get back with me one day in future?will u if i keep this feeling of love?if ur answer is yes , than i will keep it until u want me back and love me like u used to..

2010-08-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

hello guys..currently am chatting with Erul..haha..stop it luhh Erul..haha..we joke2 arnd..sungguh the merepek..dgn die punye "Buat Ape"..haha..i am alo listening to this song titled "Selamat Tinggal Goodbye"...nice song..i suddenly remembered tat Aciik pena nyanyi this song when lpk at 142..haha..nice song..love it so much..haha..this song khas for guys who maen kayu tiga ye..haha..Erul just now tanye2 me soalan yng tak perlu..haha..malu doookk ! only i knw the ans..hehe...tknk story lebih2..nnti tk pasal2 jdi gossip terhangat...WOW ! tknk luhh...haha..now sumpah tgh mendaq..feel like sleeping , but not tired..still feel like chatting..naseb Erul online..if not mendaq gyler..Cfem ! haha..tdi i otp with "T" jap..haha..he majok ngn me pasal tk tron..he said he was waiting for me..rase berslh pulak..but memang i cannot trn..wat to do kn..mummy say i must stay at home and solat..naseb solat..haha..tenang sikit rasenye..haha..kayluh..nothing more to talk kt blog..haha..enjoy the song !

-syahsyah ur love

p/s : Cair luh dgn die !

2010-08-17T18:43:00.002+08:00

see them both?sweet couple kn?haiiisss...i don't knw wat to say anymore..i jut can't stop my heart from being jeles and hate them both..i don't mind if they want to date or watsoever..but,please don't do it in front of me..please..i'm begging u guys..i may look okay on the outside..but in the inside?no one knws..only Allah knws how i feel..i feel like crying everytime seeing u guys romancing..but i just smile..this is so i won't cry in front of u guys..it was lucky tat Erul and geng was there everytime u guys are romancing..my other CINTAs was also there..if not,i don't knw wat will happened..i think i would cry and be crazy..eventhough "T" is asking my to be his stdy , i am not rdy as i still love Acap..i am still hurt by his doings..i hated him sooo much bcoz of tat..i want to forget Acap..but not this way..my forcing myself to love "T"..i am doing all this to forget all about Acap..all the things about him..but i can't..i'm sorry Su and Acap..i am really sorry..as wat i said just now , i am strting to have feelings for "E"..but if i can't be with him , then maybe i will be with "T"..i will try to love him..i won't want to hurt any of them..or any of the guys..i just need time..i knw tat u both aren't together yet..but i knw tat one day u guys will..and when tat day come , i will just smile even if i am hurt seeing u guys romancing in front of me..just wanna say thnks to u both for hurting me slowly again..hoepe u guys are happy in future together..

- syahsyah ur love

p/s : I'm hurt !

2010-08-16T20:03:00.002+08:00

three weeks more to hari raya..hmm...i miss the moment when i used to celebrate with all of my family..the first Raye i had in sengkang with my dad,mum,sisters and abng Yayan..not to forget my other family members..miss tat time..this year , my dad would not be here to celebrate Raye with..how i miss the moment..i knw i will always have my uncles with me..but they are different from my dad..my own dad..haisss...i miss him alot..he is always there when i need him..but now?it's been soo long since i celebrated Raye with my dad..i want to kiss his hand to ask for forgiveness..i want to kiss his cheeck..i want to hug him..i want to cry together with him..whenever he called during Raye , i will cry..my tears will keep on rolling..i can't take this anymore..i need him..only him...i need my ABAH ! my one and only dad..i can't bear to ask for forgiveness through the phone..i can't see his sincerity.. i want to see his tears..i miss his tears..i want to cry together with him..i just want to be with him every Raye..i don't want anything else..i jut want him and my family..i want us to be together like we used to be..happy family..this year , i have everything..my friends , my CINTAs , my family and my love oness..but i don't have my Abah..i just want him..i have to be far away from wat i have this Raye , i will do it..as long as i have my Abah..as long as i can celebrate Raye with him..i miss him...sumpah i do ! i just want him right now..only he cld mend my broken heart..he's one of the reasone i still am strong..everytime i am hurt bcoz of guys , he will cheer me up..he will say to me , "kak , life isn't about guys . If he is not for u , u might find someone better in future . Concerntrate on ur studies . I am sure u will find someone better . " I miss those word..and i really need one now..i wih i cld tell him tat i am sooo hurt now..i want him to councel me..he's the only one who can do tat..only u Abah ! please come back soon..i really miss and need u...

-syahsyah ur love

p/s : i love u , Abah !

2010-08-15T12:22:00.002+08:00

wat a dream..why must he appeared in it?why not any other guy?i seriously can't stop this feeling..the feeling of love towards him..URGHHHH !! i really want him back in my life..but i knw i can't..i'm trying my best to hate him..but still i can't..i fight with him , quarell with him so tat the feeling of hatred will come..but no..i can't hate him..why?!everyday i noticed he's trying to get her..i am trying to help by supporting him..but wat am i doing?hurting myself again?i am hurting myself now by all those words..this is so i won't feel any pain in future if he really does want to hurt me again..i need someone else to replace him..to at least make me forgot my love towards him..i am not moving on..but i am trying..i just can't move on and find a new guy..i am tooo hurt a wat i said..my life now isn't tat happy..it's all bcoz of my love towards u..every time i see his face , i am trying to tell myself " Syah !He's the guy u hated most !"..but i can't..i've tried..but i can't..i seriously can't..please kill me ! i just can't stand this anymore ! i just can't see them anymore ! even if i try to hate him.. i need omeone to help me..help me to get rid of this stupid love..the STUPID love towards him..i hate this ! i hate wat is happening to me..i just can't..I CAN'T !!!!!!

2010-08-14T23:44:00.002+08:00

heyloo..i am ssooo tiredd siaa..

today woke up at 10+.then called Ari..die ajak lpk..just woke up sehyy..then i just agree..i say to them i tk sempat mandi..so they say okay..when went down , saw Yan and Andy too..haha...lpk2..then felt hungry..semue tk puase kt sane..so me and yan beli mkn at mall..senyap2 luhh..haha..then continue lpk and eat..then tibe2 Apai RX-Z msg..haha..pakai hp Yan and reply..skali dpt tau he got girlfren..ALAMAK ! terlps luhh pulak..haha..FAKE ! hope he last long with hi girl..after tat at and 12+ , went home..called Su..she wants to lpk..i okay je..then Acap call my hse..he at 142..i say to him msg Su..i tgh mls nk trn sehy..then after a long time ,Su bising..suroh trn..i tron luhh..before tron , mandi luh of coz..biler tron , saw Aciik and Erul..haha ! they look at me mcm tk pena nmpk orng ! ape nieeyy ! haha..then mase lpk tu , i tgh mendaq gyler..so kacau2 Erul and Aciik..then Su gy txt Aciik wat i say about Erul..niey yng mendtng kn kemarhan orng nieyy..issshhhkkk !!

after tat i kacau2 Acap..bingit siaak ngn die...Akim then dtng...ouh Akim , i miss u sooo much luhh..haha...then lpk2..tibe2 my sis msg..suroh temankn die gy CP..i ikot kn aje..after buying her stuff , continue lpk2 ngn drng..after tat Akim balek..then my turn..i then call Su suroh temankn me buy pineapple..dh beli semue , she continue lpk ngn Acap while i balek...today sedare-mare semue dtng nk buke..then saw ibu nye family..buat bodoh then the rest sampai..after buke , duduk2 luar..then masuk bilik with Haryz and Danial..we lpk2 and gurau2..then kluar balek ,tgk tv..then took pics at webcam..then they all balek..haha...

so currently now i tgh chat with my new fren Anjer and Erul..haha..mendaq..kayluh..tats all i have..bye !

- syahsyah ur love

p/s : I want to forget u !

2010-08-13T22:27:00.002+08:00

OUHHHHH NOOOOOOO !!!! Tomok is getting married nxt year ?! Mane bleyy !!UWAAAAA !!!! He's mine !! sape niey yang brani2 rampas die nieyy ?! Cpt mengaku !! EEEEEEEEE Gramnyyeee !! kite dh lame bercinta then senang2 je nk kahwin ngn Tomok..mane bleyy ! he's mine forever and alwaes taw...langkah mayat aku dulu seblm nk kahwin dgn die..

Tomok bby pun satu..mane bleyy u kahwin dgn orng laen..pandai2 je ckp this yr last yr puase bujang..mane bleyy..u dh janji nk kahwin ngn i..u TIPUUUU !! i sedih u nk kahwin ngn orng laen..Sakeet HATIII !!!! SAKET SEKALI !! Jangan tinggal kn i TOMOKK !!!

FAKE !!!!

hahaha...so the over luh syah nieyy..haha..prasan je tau..haha..kkay..proper update please syah ! haa..today go to skool as usual..science test sehyy..stress ku dibuatnye..then history lesson , slept for 1 hr...FUUUHHH ! best tu..hahah..after skool went to park..nk jumpe Akim..but he was late..saw adq Era,Ziana and Amirul..so lpk with them jap..then went to 142 to mit dorng2...took the same bus with "Ustaz" Amirul luh konon..haha..bile sampai , saw Acap,Andy and Mir..Andy tanye if i puase tak..i say luhh blm lgy bley..then he mintak me ____...so ape lgy,kite sembunyi2 luhh..haha..after tat Acap amek Su..kite joke2 around..then tibe2,Aciik,Erul and the geng datang..issshhhkk !! ahha...dorng puase yok2..hahaha..aiyoooo ! haha..they stay kt sane quite long jgk luhh..mcm2 lagu drng maen kt guitar..kite pun join sekaki nyanyi..haha..after tat dorng cioaw..so tinggal kite bdak2 A's..Su tibe2 nanges..pasal Yan luh..i ask her to stop..so she did..then we lpk2..soon semue kene balek..so me and Su gy mall..temankn die buke puase..after buke semue,g 142..but i go home dulu..tukar baju..then tron balek..tibe2 Acap dtng..ponteng terawih..ishk3..haha ! Andy,Ari adn Ruzaidil pun same ! ape nk jdi niey..bile tgh lpk2,sempat txt Apai RX-Z..he' 20..haha..terkejot jap..haha...

kkayluh..gtg..nk lpk2 ngn family plak..BYEEE !

- syahsyah ur love

p/s : Jangan tinggal daku !

2010-08-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hey..let me give u a proper update of today..

today went to skool..now dh tkde lmbt lgy..haha.. early je sampai..haha..today got maths and english tet..english was okay..math was abit hard..haiyaaa !!after tat had normal lessons..still i tk puase coz blm bley lgy..hehee..at skool memang bored as no one txted me..sedih pe hidup..haiss..but around 1+ gytu,Su and Acao msg..they sampai alrdy kt 142..haha..so after skool,cabbed back home..the taxi driver so damn iratating..menggatal je taw..isshhhhkk ! benci btol..then reach at 142..Acap was alone..but saw Aciik and the geng..haha !it sebelah Acap then tanye mane Su..he say Su tgh naek lrt..haha..then she call..die kate die dh sampai..so we walk and mit her..die dgn her sis and her sis punye kwn..then we lpk2 at 142...bestt..haha..Su kacau2 kite..get to knw new frens..Acap so the iratating..haha ! then Andy and Mir sampai..lgy luh best..we joke2 around semue..then around 4+,Su,Acap,Ana and Danny kene balek..say bye2 to them..then me and the rest naek my hse jap..nk bgy Andy charger iPod..after tat they balek..so i jut duduk rumah..at 5,i got tution..blaja for tmrw' test..then Amyrawr came..haha..luckily tution dh bes..so bbl2 ngn die...then webcamming ngn Su..we even take ome pics..haha..then she go home..dh nk buke puase time ! haha..i also keypo2 uh..full siaa mkn..then continue to chat with Su..tibe2 Taufiik called..he ajak me tean him go buy something..so i agree..then he waited for me kt bwh blok..then we walk to 124..he go buy tat thing then he antar me home..haha..so sweet of him kn? ahaha...we are just frens ye..nothing more..haha...then now i am just chatting and doing nothing..kap lgy then call Taufiik..haha..tgh bored man..haha..kkayluh..sampai disini sahaja...Bye guys !

- syahsyah ur love

p/s : NO MORE LOVE !

2010-08-12T18:52:00.002+08:00

i miss this moment..haiss..dh,dh,dh syah..everything is still okay..i think?latest news,Su and Yan broke up alrdy..sape mintak?Yan..WTH kn? tgh bulan puase sehyy..bknnye nk buat orng happy..tpi menyakitkn and menyedihkn hati orng ade luhh...haiss..ape nk jdi sehy..but wat i knw,now i really want us to be happy..A's sampai mati y'all !demi syah plz korng baek2 semula..tkmo gadoh2...i dh give up ngn korng2 nye hal gadoh..cube baek2 semule..mcm syah and Acap..btol tk Acap?tgk tu..Acap pun agree..hahaha..simply just let go of the past and create a new frenship..become like me luhh guys..NO MORE LOVE ! haha..yeah,yeah !!why?hanya Allah ngn myself je tau why..i'm no longer telling anyone why..dh pnt and mls..everyday mesti ade je ppl asking me why this,why tat..issshhhkk !! so strting from now, no more asking yee?let me and Allah share thi wonderfull secret..haha...kayluh..wanna keypoh2 kt luar..they all nk buke..hahah ! nk join sekaki ! tak tau malu uh syah nieyy ! dh luhh tk puase ! hahaa ! kkay luh..bye2 ! to korng2 yng syah cinta , please cheer up and dgr nasihat syah ye? SELAMAT BERBUKE ! (:

-syahsyah ur love

2010-08-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

Qeisya , mummy rindu same Qeisya..dh lame mummy tk jengok Qeisya..mummy dpt tau Qeisya saket ye? alalaala...kesian nye die..Qeisya cpt sembuh ye..nnti mummy dtng kite bley maen2..nnti mummy belikan Qeisya something ye kalau Qeisya dh baek..mummy btol2 tk sbr nk jumpe Qeisya..hari2 mummy pk kn Qeisya..mummy sorry kalau mummy dh lame tk jengok Qeisya..mummy busy..mummy skola,mummy ade problem dgn kwn2 mummy and mummy tkde mase..Qeisya tau kn nek su tk kasi mummy dtng umah Qeisya sgt kn..jdi mummy tk bley luh slalu dtng..mummy akan dtng nxt week..mummy janji ye Qeisya?mummy dh tk ley tahan lgy..dh terlalu rindukn Qeisya..satu2nye anak mummy..walaupun Qeisya cume anak angkat mummy,tetap Qeisya anak mummy satu2nye..Qeisya tunggu mummy ye?nnti mummy dtng..kite lpskn rindu ye?Qeisya cpt baek taw..mummy tknk Qeisya saket..mummy nk Qeisya sihat..Qeisya , mummy SAYAANG Qiesya ! MUACKZZZ3 !

To Su : Su,jgn luh sedih2..be happy..i've read ur blog..Su tkde kene mengene dgn ape yng terjdi between me and Acap..semue tu terjdi sebab dh ditentukanNya..i can handle it..so jgn nk slh kn diri Su..jujur syah kate,memang syah kecewa dgn Su and Acap..but then syah cube untuk lupekn and strt anew..and pasal Yan,Su releks je..he will notice wat he did wrong..he will understand u one day..just bersbr..bukan ke sbr itu separuh dari iman?lgy2 bulan niey,bulan puase..so must sbr bnyk2..Allah tgh buat promosi terhebat..semue tgh nk merebut peluang niey..so ape lgy,Su pun kene luh merebut..hehehe.dh,dh,dh..jgn sad2..be happy alwaes..

To Acap : Acap,kenape nk putuskn frenship dgn Su?! why i tk tau pasal niey?ape niey?nk break frenship semue..kalau i bley lupekn cinta i terhadap Andy dulu without breaking our frenship,why can't u?i knw it's hard..but sbr..u need time..i also need time to forget my love towards u..so kite due kene usaha same2..kite bina persahabatan yng baru..yang suci dan sempurna..lgy2 di bulan yang suci ini..we begin a new frenship on this month..and hopefully,kite semue akan mendpt keberkatan..Amiin..so,jgn nk merepek2 lgy ye?kite happy2..and please luhh,make me happy..jgn buat i sedih2 lgy..promise me u will do so?

- syahsyah ur love

2010-08-11T14:22:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN SEMUE !

sorry if lately asyik tulis blog to him aje..as wat i say,i cant talk to him face-to-face..just don't knw why..kkay..today first day puase..i can't puase pasal this stupid red light..and i currently am sick..been vomiting alot since i came back from lpking yesterday..entah ehy..why i suddenly am sick..everytime i eat,the food will be thrown back out..even today morning..i went to skool..before tat i ate something..at skool,i feel like vomitting and collapsing..still,the same result..muntah2 kt skola..i almost faint at the skool toilet..so when my teacher suroh balek,i just agree..now i tgh tahan dari nk muntah..i knw i can't..but i have to try..my maid is cooking porridge for me and lil' sis coz due2 ngah saket..i'm trying to eat ltr..tgk kalau bley..smlm Taufik txted me..i called him back..tk tau sape..then talked2 ngn die..haha..aik,aik,aik..mcm ade ape2 je..tkdeluhh..just making new frens..kn bgos..hahaha..

this one goes to Acap : U,thnks for the msg this morning..really am glad tat u read my blog and understand wat i have to say..i am really glad tat u dh sedar..i am glad tat u till want to be frens with me..i pun syng u and tknk kehilangan u..as wat u say , i am ur one and only sister love..and u're always mine brother love..tapi kalau untk maafkn u , i btol2 mintak maaf..i just can't..my hati dh tertutup untk maafkn u..but insyallah soon..i tk tau bile..kalau u nk i maafkn u cpt2,then why not u cube bukakn pintu hati i untk maafkn u..mungkin kalau u cube,i akan maafkn u?so cube je kay..and,kalau i nk minta satu bende dari u bleyy?kalau bley,i tetap nk pakai baju raye sepasang dgn u..as a symbol of our new frenship..bley??kalau tk bley tkpe..i'm okay with it..u knw wat to do kn after reading this?just txt me..i'll be waiting..

kkay luh..tats all i have..bye !

-syahsyah ur love

p/s : A beginning of a new frenship !

2010-08-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

i am missing u..but my heart keeps on saying tat i hate u..i dnt knw why luh..i just can't stop thinking wat had happened..i am missing the moments we used to have last time..before all of this strted..before ur feelings towards me changed..but all i realised now is tat,it's impossible for me to have tat now..it's too late..i'm too late for ur love..i knw tat feelings will change sooner or later..but mine?it can nvr change..i just don't knw why..i still am waiting for something..i knw there is still something u wanna say to me..but u just can't..i can be ur fren but i can nvr forgive u..right now,in my heart,the doors for forgiving u are still closed..closed tightly..i am not sure in future..i want us to be like we use to be..still cn joke around and smile..if u didn't make the wrong choice,i guessed this won't happened..we will be like we used to be..u and me laughing and disturbing each other..i want tat moment back..can u give it back to me?please?even if we are frens?mungkin i tkkn hidup lame..we don't knw about this stuffs..now,i am in pain..my heart and the rest of y body..i can't breathe,i can't think,i can't see,i can't hear and i can't feel..why?i just don't knw..just now,i was expecting an answer from u..but there are no answers from u..the answers tat only u knw..no one elso knws..when i walked away,i was expecting u to stop me or o call or msg me..but no..there's only silence..nothing much..i cried at the staircase..i cried real bad..when u leave,then i came down..i am really disappointed in wat i've see..Acap,walaupun tkde pun sikit perasaan u terhadap i,i nk u pk pasal i..kite dh nk masuk 7 bulan "bersame"..i tk penah lupe..i maseh ingt date die lgy..the beautiful date and moment..i btol2 harap yng u bley sekurang2nye syngkn i..i tk mintak u untk cinta kn i..tpi syng,please?biar i cintakn u..but i akan tepis kn perasaan itu biler u dh syng kn i..i tau u nk jdi single..u love ur single life..u want to be frens only with me..kay,i'm fine with it..tpi tetap,i tk bley maafkn u..i'm just sooo sorry..i can't now..i don't knw about the future..please Acap , call me or msg me..i am waiting for ur answers and our relationship..let' strt anew..we built a new frenship..but with one condition,u tell me how u feel towards me and ur answers..i was hoping a "SORRY" from u since yesterday..but no..i am jut sad but i will be waiting..not to be in love with u..but to be ur fren..ur new fren..

2010-08-10T14:29:00.000+08:00

i knw wat i've said are rude..but u have to understand my situation nw..all this happened to fast..it's hard for me to accept it..but in the end i did..i am just telling u wat i feel..it's impossible for me to tell u in front of ur face..i'm sure something will happened..i knw u're trying to prove to me tat u're really wrong and sorry..by letting me listen to the song "DEMI WAKTU"..but i'm sorry..i just can't..the pain is tooo deep now..it's different..i wish u could understand..SUMPAH tkde niat i nk buat u mrh or wat..but i just nk u sedar tat u're changing..i love u and tats why i am trying to help u..i am trying for ur own good..not mine..i'm okay with u loving her..but not forever..u must accept the fact..eventhough drng ckp , 'mataey bley break , tunang bleyy putus , kahwin bleyy cerai' , but in fact no..when they're soo in love,we as their frens give them the encouragement..i just want u to let go of ur love..i knw it's hard..but trust me..u cn..u just need time..i am trying to do tat..i really do love u..tapi hakikatnye,cinta i hanya bertepuk sebelah tgn..i bkn pilihan u skrng..i tk leyy buat ape2 coz i knw tat i can nvr force anyone to love me or wat..but wat i cn do is advice u..its all up to u..kalau u nk dgr ape yng i ckp atau tak..but wat i am doing now is just telling u how i feel..it's useless telling u about my feelings towards u..i will try to forget my love towards u like how i forget my love towards Andy..i akan cube kalau itu yng u nk..walaupun it's hard for me,but i will try..time is all i need..it's really impossible for me to forget my love..i don't knw why..but u're just one special guy..u're special in every ways..i can't say in wat ways..but yes,u certainly are..i feel like going to u and strt anew...strt a new frenship..but i can't..i just dnt knw why..my heart is fully with u and about u...as wat i said,i cinta mati dgn u...but i kene lupekn cinta itu..tell me how?tell me how to forget my love toward someone special like u?please...i'm begging u nw..just tell me how..if tats wat u want,i will do it..for our own good..but i just tknk u maseh kejar2 cinta u yng sememangnye dh mati..cume u je yng tk sedar..bkn i nk batu api ke ape..but it's the truth..i am saying this bcoz i love u..hope u will understand..just give me time and tell me how to forget my love towards u..my special idol to my heart..tats all i need from u..

2010-08-10T02:59:00.000+08:00

seriously i really had enough..i've been standing this up for too long..now i just can't stand it anymore..i knw u still love her and only her is in ur heart..i am so stupid to be with u again while i knw tat it will hurt me so badly...u wanna knw why?this is because i love u soo much..but wat do u care..u feel urself so popular...u just dont think about my feelings...for u this means nothing..i really have sacrifice alot for u..i changed myself to lead a new life with u..but it seems tat its useless..tooo useless..u think by hiding all those msgs,i will nvr knw?sorry uhss ! i can get to knw everything by myself..like how i knw u still love her and be with me bcoz of her..serious..i feel like slapping ur face just now...but no..i just let u off..thnks to Andy and Ari luhh i can still sbr..u pk prangai u yng baru niey semue suke?sorry to say this but,u can just go and die if ur prangai mcm niey..u serious dh berubah since u love her..u berubah into the ACAP tat we all dont knw..the ACAP tat we all hate nw..u sanggup lukakn hati brother pasal pmpn..u sanggup gadoh senyap2 pasal pmpn..and u sanggup saketkn hati pmpn yng CINTA MATI dgn u just bcoz of ur ego...ego u yng penting kn diri sendiri..let me say this,she doesnt love u anymore luhh...she loves Yan..ur brother love...and yet u're still chasing her love..serious talking,u're just wasting ur time..kejar cinta yng bertepuk sebelah tgn..ouh please luhh! orng kalau bley tknk die terluka...but then he still heck care...u penah tk pk pasal perasaan i?even u tk cinta kn i but still u penah tk pk?sekurang2nye pk luhh..jgn nk buat bodoh je..and lgy satu,u niey memang suke sgt tipu and saketkn hati i kn?best ke saketkn hati i?i pun nk tau jgk..maneluh tau i pun bley try2..i tgk u buat niey semue mcm best gytu..mcm,"BESTNYE tgk syah saket hati ! "...ehy,please ehyy..be a MAN..jgn ikotkn EGO u..pasal EGO u tu,u just hurt me..the girl whom u used to love and waited for..jujur i kate,i am so madly in love with u even when we broke up and i was with Aziq..but then after all this happened,i suddenly feel tat its useless..just USELESS ! no one can wake u up..no one..only u cn wake urself up...sampai bile u nk kejar cinta tu?sampai bile?sedarlah sikit,die dh ade cinta yng baru..and sumpah,if u kacau r/s dorng,i tkkn bgy chance kt u..kalau u btol2 cintakn die,u sanggup lpskn cinta u just to see her happy with ur own brother love..niey tk..u still nk rampas cinta die dari Yan..ape nieyy?serious luh,breaking up with u today was the best choice ever..kalau tk,lps niey tk tau plak ape u nk buat..this is wat u want right?then be happy..u've got it and FYI,i seriously maseh tk puas hati dgn u lgy..we still got things to settle...jgn nk happy2 sgt..so i just wanna say CONGRATULATION for being the first guy ever to hurt me this MUCH ! TANIAH sgt2..hadiah anda akan diberikan tidak lame lgy..so WANSUAYY !

2010-08-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

hey..who's tat sexy girl? haha ! cute tk? tk kn..haha!

jut came back from karaoke-ing with Mummy Mai's family , Hasif Nitro's frens and my family ..had fun actually...lgy2 with Hasif Nitro geng..mcm badut2..when we ang lagu dangdut, semue gelek siooot ! haha..had a great day today...i wa actually abit moody as my ppaed dh bes..can't txt my Bby{L}..but i was expecting him to txt me..but he didn't..so disappointed...we end our karaoke-ing session at 11pm..then we went home straight..Hasif Nitro and geng were riding bikes...sooo fun sehy...but i can't join them as my mum was there...then mummy send Mummy Mai home..then i saw a few bdak2 kt bwh her blok..it was Danial Irfan and his geng..and i knw one of them..its Apai RX-Z...it's one of the guy who tumpang me on the 31 July..haha..then when i reached home,called Su..talk with her..then called Hasif Nitro..Apai RX-Z wa there too..he gave me his nu..he say , "kalau perlukan ride or something , just call me. " HAHAHA ! i just say okayy...haha...num die pun dh save..buat collection..haha..but i still akan setia pada satu okaay ? haha..after tat,called Izmeer as he misscalled me..after tat called Bby{L}..he was about to sleep..get to talk to him for a while...dpt jgk melpskn rindu kt die..miss him sooo much sehyy...

kay luh..gtg...nk tido..tmrw Su nk serbu my hse pagy2 lgy..haha ! kkay..BYE2 !

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : Tiada duanya !

2010-08-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

hey...sorry for not updating ye?haha..buzy luhh knn...

btw, wanna wish Hin a Happy 15th Bday ! to Hin : dh bsr dh niey anak..haha..happy bday ye?happy2 slalu ! and,get well soon..

now i wanna congratulate Su and Yan sebab std senyap2...thnks ehyy korng...haha ! but last long ye..hope korng kekal sampai ke jinjang pelamin..and,and,and , i wanna be ur pengapit taww ! hahaha...

hmmm...it seems tat everyone is happy..except for me..why?entah..my heart told me tat something's not right somewhere..sumpahh i don't knw wat...been searching for the answer..every single day and night..but still,no answer could be found..hmmm....

as for my relationship with Acap Hubby , i am really happy with him..i love him..cinta mati babe...i can't live without him...bhy,jujur i kate,i tkley berpisah dari u..u luh nyawa i bhy..i akan cinta u buat slamanye bhy...I LOVE U !

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : Cinta mati dgn u !

2010-08-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

~01/08/10~

hey...see tat pic and date?yea..i get back with him yesterday...i still can't forgive him fully..sorry bhy..but it's the truth..Su wa the one who talked to me and Acap..and i listen to her and i tried to give him a chance..when Acap came to me and asked me if i want to patch with him , i jut kept silence...he promised me tat he won't do it anymore and he is really sorry..i don't knw if i can trust him..all i knw is tat i'm trying and he is probably trying to...i knw tat he still loves her..and maybe he patch with me pun kerana terpakse..entahlah..lets see..all i hope for now is tat i cld last with him and i want him to prove me wrong..i will try to forgive u and trust u again bhy..i've accepted u again..i am giving u one last chance to prove to me something..please remember bhy , i'll always love u and i want the best in us..let's stay together as long as we can..just remember bhy,i will always love u dear !

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : I'm trying my best !

2010-08-01T16:04:00.000+08:00

hey guys..do i look diff in this pic?haha..thnk to kak Jun for the make-over luh..just for yesterday..i get to learn some make-up tips luh..but now my eyes tgh soring..maybe bcoz of the fake eyelashes kot..ISHHHKKKK...now tgh tunggu my tution teacher dtng..so plan to update blog jap..

just now i go to madrasah..i even get to express my feelings to ustazah..i was lucky tat she can help me eventhough it's about my love and heart...wat she say is true..i shld forgive him but not forgive wat he had done to me..Ustazah also say tat guys are always like this..but we can't blame them as it's their natural beahavior..i believe in wat she says..as she is the only person i cn true advice from..she is like my kakak alrdy..she helped me alot..she even share with me some of the religious stuffs...she said tat NABI MUHAMMAD S.A.W once said " if we really like/love tat person , in future tat person will be the person we hate . But if we really hate tat person , in future we will be madly in love or madly like tat person . " so she said tat we mut not hate the person..we must hate the doings of the person..thnks Ustazah..u really make me realised something..

But now , shld i forgive him?i am really hurt..i want to forgive him,but i just can't..i don't want o hate him..but i just can't..how?i am really confused...i can't stop crying in the inside thinking about the reality...but i must accept reality..hmmm...i think i shld give myself time..time to think...

-syahsyah ur minaaahrep

2010-07-31T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey..just came back..wat a day..today aunt Idah mintak tolong me to become her fren's model..so i agree..meet her at 1+..then went to Tamp Street 11..aunt Idah's fren make me up and do my hair..then we pose2 take photo..haha..muke seriously laen...look slimmer,hidung manchung and my kening lawa...hahah!after all of the session,we were served with food..i tgh mengidam nk mamam mee soto..then it really came true..tk luhh sedap sgt..but okay luh..dpt mkn sudaah..after tat meet Su,Yan and Mir at tamp mall...lpk2 at carpark,take some pic and then went home..told Mir and Yan wat i feel now..they understand kot..then i separated from them...when reached home,i went online...i was openening the hairclips on my hair..then suddenly i saw his PM ...SAKET SAAAAK HATI !!!

it was sooo obvious gylerrr !!

ISSHHHHHKKKKK !!! seriously,meluat ku tgk ! tk pk ehy pasal prasaan orng ?! it was just yesterday kite talk2 and luahkn peraaan each other ! but now, u really make me feel like HATING u ! erious luhh,kalau nk BERCINTA,bercinta luhh belakang2 syah ! dh tau prasaan orng lgy sengaje pe ?! penah tk pk ape syah rase ?! URGHHHHHH!!!! serious shit luh, my heart btol2 SAKET saakkk !!!!!!!! i wish i cld run away from this place...i wanna go to a place which there is no one accept for me !! URGGGHHHH !!!!

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : KILL ME !! IT"S EVEN BETTER !!

2010-07-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

hey..just came back from the Eplanade..

kkay..today went to skool..but i can't stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks..so i just let it roll without my teacher noticing..finished skool at 11.30..then meet Fyie,Lia and Kiekie at the canteen..almost cried on Lia's shoulder..they asked me wat happened..but i just can't tell them without crying..otw home, i msg Akim and Mir..i wanna meet them and cry on their shoulder..but they asked me to meet at Acap's house...URRRGGGHHH ! why must it be at his house ? after getting ready,i went to Acap's blok..i waited for them..then saw Awid,Yan,Mir,Akim and my sayang , Su...i wanna talk to Akim and Mir,so the rest went up..cried while telling them how i feel..they ask me to go up...but i can't..i hate to see his face..it makes me feel like _____ him...but for their sake,i went up..i didn't smile to him..i just salam him but tk ikhlas..soon Andy talk to me..i talk to Su jgk..then went inside back..suddenly Akim ask me to go inside Acap's room..i don't want..but he force me..there he asked me and Acap to tell wat we feel for each other..as usual,i cried..i jut can't luhh..then Andy came in..he talk with u too..but then Akim and Andy so called had a fight gytu..so i was stress and i went out of the roo after touching up my make-up..i ask Su to temankn me..Mir and Yan also tagged along..salam Acap still tk ikhlas and went out..bbl ngn drng tiga then went to Bishan..meet Fyie there..then we went ti City Hall to miet Kie and Lia..they three make my day..thnk saayaangs ! the concert was okaayluhh..had fun taking pics etc..after tat,kite just lpk2..waiting for my ride..thnks Hasif Nitro and geng..tdi tukar2 motor..RX-Z luhh,KR luhh lgy satu tk tau..hahah! but okayy luh..get to experience nieyy semue..when i reached home,bace blog A's..i was kinda hurt and disappointed..i just closed the blog as i don't want to see it anymore..the more i read it,the mor hurt i am..sorry Su..

as my feelings for tat particular guy,i still love him but i just can't forgive him..my heart is too hurt..let me repeat, TOOOO HURT !!but it's up to him..if he really wants me to forgive him,he jut have to prove it to me..tats all...the decision is not going to be make by me..but my heart..if u are reading this,let me tell u something,i never want to hate u..but after hearing wat u have to say just now,it really make me wanna hate u..understand?

kkayluh..gtg..wanna slip..bye2!

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s: I hate seeing ur face !

2010-07-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

REALLY?!!Why mut i hear this?WHYY??!!after wat i've tried to do,this is wat i get?it's just been a day..after tat,u tell me tat u have make the wrong decision..why must u tell me now??why not yesterday??why must u accidentally picked me??u can jut picked her right??now,u've hurt me..this time,i can really feel the pain..the pain tat i'd never felt before...the PAIN tat i don't wish to feel !!! never want to feel !!let me cry..let me cry a thousand tears..i won't get u back..i won't ever get u back..i can never accept this....there is really a big large hole plunged into my heart right now...why is t hard for u...NOO!for u GUYS to understand?i've forget him and my love towards him as i realised i love u..but,it's useless...it's still the same...i will still be hurt..hurt deeply!!i want ur love,but it really is useless right?do u think it's easy to forgive u??i can forgive u..but wat u did,it's impossible for me to forgive u..now,i just don't feel like seeing ur face anymore ! i just wanna run away from all this ! i want to run away from u ! i want to run away from reality !!!!!! URGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! i hate wat u've done to me !!! i hate it soooo much !!! it's useless even if u say a thousands of sorry to me..it won't change anything..it won't turned back time..it will never !! jut wanna say thnk u for lying to me for about 24 hrs ! THANKS ALOT !!!!

-syahsyah

2010-07-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

hey..see the pic?now i can say tat we are a couple..yesterday Acap mintak me patch..i accept him back as now i realised tat i really love him and only him..i've let go my feelings towards Aziq a i knw tat he does not feel the same and i don't want to force him anymore..niey bkn desperate..but this is true love..i realised tat Acap was meant for me and i wa meant for him..i really do love him.. I love my Abng Tempang ! haha..today lpk2 at his house luh kn..but before gy his hse,i go rumah Su..then Su show me a video tat Acap made for her..sweet luhh seiii ! jealous i tgk...but i understand..i am just jealous tat no one nk buat me video like tat kn?tkpe3..buat sendiri lgy bgs..haha..tdi lpk pun tk buat ape..just joke arnd etc..but,i pity Su..she mcm saket hati gytu..and it's true..Su,jgn buat me serba slh cn?sumpah i rase serba slh sehyy ! hais..now i am waiting for my Abng Tempang..he left me alone sehyy ! sad taaw..now,tgh pk pasal tmrw..going to Esplanade coz skool ade buat concert..compulory..kalau tk compulsary,dh cabot and lpk2 with my dear semue..but it's compulsary..so pegy jeluhh...but before going,nk jumpe my Abng Tempang jap..rinduu luhh weiii ! haha..

kayluh..tu aje..update tmrw ye? Bye2 !

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : Demi cinta kita , aku akan menjaga cinta kita yang telah dibina ! <3

2010-07-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

I've heard enough today.. from everyone tat i love.. tat's it ! i am making my decision , i want to be the old Syahirah.. the Syahirah who doesn't knw anything.. the Syahirah tat ppl used to like.. the Syahirah whom always is happy without "LOVE"...i am giving up on his love as it i too useless...i am giving up in all this "LOVE" thingy...i just wanna be the old me..i want ppl to love/like me like they used too..i've destroyed to much of my life alrdy..i am going to change guys..i am !! now i feel useless alrdy..ppl strting to hate me..ppl strting to hurt me..this is all bcoz of who i am now..the girl which i myself don't even recognised...so to those whom i've hurt,i am really sorry..so all i want to say,i'm closing this book of my life and going to open a new book...hope i can change..to be the girl which i used to be..

-syahsyah

2010-07-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

eheemmm,eheemmm...heyylooo !

kkay..don't think anything about the pic alrite?i jut wanna say to u guys tat me and acap are only TTM..nothing more..it's just the pics which looks like we're a couple..but we're not a couple..some of u guys knw who i want..but i now feel like giving up coz he really doe avoid me..i've tried a lot of ways to forget about him..but,no , i can't..it's been one month since we break..i still can't get over u..why must it be soooo hard?! i never want to hate u even abit..all i want is ur love back..i want u to be like we use too be..i don't want anyone..i jut want u and ur love..tats enough for me..i just want u to knw wat i feel..i want u to understand it too..i want u to hear wat i've got to say..i jut need 5 mins of ur life since it's really impossible for u wanting to meet me anymore..plzzz,give me a chance to talk to u..it's okay if u don't give me a chance to be with u again..but i just need the chance to explain..plzz give it to me..plzzz?i just can't stand this anymore..haisss...i will allways be waiting for ur words..i love u Aziq . YES , I still do ! nvr ever will let thi feeling go...

-syahsyah<3>

p/s : i'm really empty !

2010-07-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

seeing those lovers hugging,i will always miss hugging u..seeing those lovers kissing,i will always miss kissing u..seeing those lovers saying "I LOVE YOU" to each other,i will always miss saying those words to u..i've hurt u once and i think i've hurt u again..but why,how and when?u wouldn't want to let me knw..when i ask u,u will not want to answer my question..why?i know tat it really hurt u..now,u are trying ur best not to see me..not to talk to me..not to listen to me..And not giving me a chance to say i'm sorry..if u are reading this,i want to let u know tat i am really sorry for wat i had done..i know u're hurt and mad at me..but why must u give me this cold silence?seeing u in school everyday makes me want to pull u to hug and kiss u infront of everyone..i really want u to know tat i am really sorry..i wish i have the guts to that..to tell u how sorry am i and how much i love u..i will wait for u every single second..i will never ever let go of this feelings..u teach me alot of things in life..u make me realised tat u're different from the others..but please..don't ever let me stop thinking tat u're different from the others..pleasee..i want to see ur smile..i want to see u laugh..i want to see ur eyes which is fill with ur love..i want to hear u say "I LOVE U"..i want to hear tat u will nvr leave me..and i really want to hear tat u're willing to give me a second chance to be with u again..but how long must i wait?i've tried everything..but u seem not to care at all..why?has ur love faded away?have u found a better girl?i knw tat i had hurt u badly..i shld have not let u go..how stupid am i?i know tat i love u but why must i let u go?letting u go is like letting my soul go..i am suffering..every night and day i will cry and cry thinking of u...pleasee,forgive me and accept me back..PLEASE AZIQ !!

-syahsyah♥

2010-07-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

hey guys..
sorry for not posting..just not in the mood luh nowdays..why?entahluhh..

kkay..this week nothing much to post..conflicts,fights,hatred and heartpain happened to me all at once this week..haixx..why sehy?i really don't knw wat to do..ppl just can't see me happy and some even creating lies to make me fight with someone..first of all is about Aziq,he is acting so wierd..wat have i done to deserve this cold silence from u??don't u realised tat i really love u and i really want a second chance from u??i am waiting for u..i have rejected lots of guys as i really love u and only u..please stop this cold silence..please..i'm begging u..secondly,i really don't wanna fight with any A's members..but to her,i am sorry..but please hear wat i've got to say..i really did not say anything about u to anyone..i knw it's hard for u to forgive and to believe me..but please forgive me..i really did not say anything about u..i love u as my sister alrdy..i am happy to see u..haixx..thirdly,i am having enemies alrdy..haixx..why must i deserve all of this??why must i suffer from this pain??am i tat bad??am i rude?? or maybe i am better alone??with no frens and all??this really hurts me alot..i can't think..i can't smile..the only thing i am able to do is to hope for some miracle..i want my old life..i want to be the happy-go-lucky girl tat i use to knw and my love ones knw..i don't want to be the girl i am now...

-syahsyah♥

p/s : ALLAH,i need u !

2010-07-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

hello guys !! currently at Acap's crib..

today,woke up at about 10+..then call MR. Malaysia guy..talk2 hen he need to shower and go to work..so ltk phone..then Su ajak kluar or lpk2..so we planned to lpk2..txt Andy all tat ckp yng Su mau lpk ngn dnrg..at about 1,tgk citer hindustan..Shah Rukh Khan ade doooh ! haha..title citer die "Dil To Pagil Hai'..haha..i think...then at 3 shower while watching citer hindustan..at arnd 4,kluar with Amyrawr and Wani to RM to take money..then meet Acap and Su at 142..then we went to RP to buy _____. after tat eat at KFC..Ari txted and say he otw to 142..so we went there..saw Andy and Mirr..then Ari and Yan join us soon..lpk2 and sing2..then Ajaq came along..lpk2 and sing2 then went to Acap house..jamming lagu2 bwh blok..haha! get to record a few songs..haha! then now do nothing and using Acap's laptop..Ari's beside me..haha! tk buat ape2 ye..haha

kayluh..gtg..nk kluar and join them..bye-bye !

-syahsyah ur minaahrep

p/s : Pantat ! reply cpt luhh weeii !

2010-07-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

EHY JANTAN ! KALAU KAU PK NGN CARE KAU BUAT CITE MCM TU NK BUAT AKU GADOH NGN AZIQ,GY MAMPOS UH ! KAU PK AKU NIEY BODOH ?! KAU PK AKU NIEY BLEY TERPEDAYE DGN KATE2 KAU ?! KALAU KAU NK KN AKU , MINTAK CARE BAEK UHH ! LGYPUN , SAMPAI MATI PUN AKU TKNK NGN KAU UH SIAAL ! AKU DIAM2 KN , JGN SAMPAI AKU DGR LGY CITER2 BUAT2 KAU PASAL AZIQ LGY , KAU SIAP UH ! AKU PMPN TPI TK BERMAKNE AKU TKOT NGN KAU UHH SIAAL ! KAU BUAT AKU NGN AZIQ MCM NIEY , AKU BUAT KAU 10 KALI GANDA UHH ! AKU TK TKOT UH DGN JANTAN MCM KAU ! DH BERIBU AKU JUMPE ! DASAR SUKE HANCURKAN KEBAHAGIAAN ORNG ! WALAUPUN AKU NGN AZIQ DH BREAK , DIE TETAP AKU PUNYA UHH ! INGT , AZIQ IS STILL SYAHSYAH PROPERTY AND JGN KAU NK BUAT KITE GADOH LGY UHH SIAAAL !

hey guys..see tat words up there? tat's for someone who buat2 citer pasal Aziq just wanna see me and Aziq gadoh.. perangai mcm cibai kn?

kkay..cooling down now..just now went to skool late..then had lessons,blah,blah,blah..after skool,me , Fyfyie , Fariz , Aziq and Matin went out to do our buisness..Fyfyie suddenly ask me some random question tat is "Syah,kau nye tetek mane satu bsr uh ?" HAHAHA! malu doooh dpn lelaki2 die tanye...then just ignore her question..after tat me and Fyfyie headed to Mac to meet Nyza , Lia and Huda..then we lpk2..i treat them all..abes duit ku..then meet Aziq..at around 2+,Aziq went back to skool and i went to meet Syafiq to go to CP...after reaching CP,waited for Su..but i decided to go home and ask them lpk2 near my hse..reached home,i change my clothes and eat..after tat went to 142 to meet Amyrawr , Syafiq and Su..then i call Acap to lpk skali..then he say okaay..when Acap came,i jdi gyler2 dooh ! haha..then Ajaq came..he then temankn Amyrawr to RM..Ajaq take his guitar so tk boring..after they came back,we lpk2 and sing..then Ari call me..he ask where am i..then i ask him to join skali..so he okaay..he came dgn secpt mungkin..then lpk2,blah,blah,blah...Amyrawr went back soon..then Andy,Yan and Mir dtng...the more the merrier..we lpk2 and sing2..then record one video dedicated to Su..haha..after tat Andy,Yan and Mir went home..soon after tat,me and Su went to my hse..lpk2 with her at my room while txting Aziq...Su went home at 9+..sent her to traffic light then went off..thnks Acap for sending Su..

kkay..i wanna go and rest..bye-bye !

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrep

p/s : Aziq tetap syah punyaa ! ♥

2010-07-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

heyloo guys !

haha..kay,i am so bored right now..today went to school late..but detention tk dpt..thnks Kak Lina! haha..then proceed to class for lessons..recess time sat with my sayaangs..Germany kalah dooh ! tat means i have to blanje Nyza and MR. Malaysia guy who bet tat Spain will win..didn't eat today..then proceed to hall..this morning match was being played at the hall..because of tat match,i only slept for 1 hour siaa..pnt gyler..haha..then after school lpk2 at XYZ with Fyfyie,Ayuz,Aziq,Iffat,Syafiq and the rest of Yuying guys..haha..bnyk sgt name..had fun with them..Fyifyie soon wanna go meet Areena..so salam2 them..Aziq smack my pantat ! ass luhh u !! then me and Fyfyie went home..cabbed home to meet Andy and Acap..then saw Shamir,Akim and Yan too at 142..haha..the want go home...siaal uhh..tau lpk lame sikit kt XYZ..then they follow me go to RM to buy school shoes..mummy suroh beli..she say kalau blm beli,tkley jejak rumah..wtf kn?after buying shoes,went to the toilet jap..they all balek..so i went home soon after tat..reached home then saw ibu and Asyiqin..hehe..then now listenning to songs and FBing..haha..

Kayluhh..malas nk update bnyk2..bye-bye!

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrep

p/s : Aziq , u ASS luhh u !

2010-07-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

heyloo guys..sorry for not posting..

kkay..yesterday wento to skool late..siaaal uhh..naseb Mr.Tahar bgy muke..then went back to class..after tat got art and other lessons..recess seat with my saaayaangs luhh..after tat recess resumes as per normal..PFFT! went home at 2+..meet Fyfyie at canteen and Aziq too..then me,Fyfyie,Aziq,Syafiq and Arif went to do our usual buisness..kene kacau rabak ngn Aziq GYLERR ! haha..then planned to lpk at Mac..Aziq nvr join us.he go lpk mcm biase with Ayuz semue..so left me,Fyfyie,Arif and Syafiq..tibe2 recieved call from Su..at last tukar plan,me and Fyfyie mit Su at TPY..lpk2 untill 6..i took bus 159,punye luh lame..reached home at 7.30..then saw sis's new hamster..she asked me to accompany her to Cik Shima punye adik punye rumah.. she nk amek hamster lgy satu...so after tat semue,i go buy _______ for sape2 yng nk..then ibu fetch me and sent Eraah home..reached home at 10+ gytu..

today,went to skool mcm biase..then lessons after tat recess...my fav part luuh..haha..during recess assembly,Mr. Teo show us the world cup match between Uruguay and Netherlands/Holands..semue pekik2 GOALLL ! haha..then lessons resumes as per normal..after skool,meet Fyfyie,Nyza and Lia..then otw out,Kiekie,Aziq and Matin tagged along..mcm biase,do our buisness..haha..after tat Aziq and Matin went back to skool coz ade takraw..so me and the rest duduk2 lpk2 at kedai mamak there..went home at 4 gytu...reached home,nmpk police bwh blok..ramai siiooot ! so i walk mcm bdak innocent..then eat and meet Ari after tat..lpk with ari at 142..then tibe2 nmpk Amyrawr and Ajaq..they join kite lpk..at 6,they went home..me and Ari went home soon enough..i called MR.Malaysia guy..talk for a while..and here i am now..can't wait for the match ltr..Germany vs Spain..sape menang agaknye? mesti Germany uhh..hahaha!

kayluhh..wanna relax2..pape,tmrw i will be posting..bye-bye ! :)

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrep

p/s : Germany , make me proud of u !

2010-07-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

heyloo guys..

befor i strt my posting about me,i would like to wish to Aziq Happy 15th Birthday..

kkay..on the friday went out with my darlings..Su,Faliq ans Syafiq..before miting them at E-hub,i go help Faizal buy something..it was raining heavily and i am a bit wet..saw kak Rara otw to bustop..missed her gylerr babs..haha ! then waited for cab..luckily got one..reached E-hub at 3+..guessed wat..i am the first even though i kluar lmbt..then i bought the tickets for them first...watching "ECLIPSE" luhh ! haha...then Syafiq came along and we went to Pastamania to have our meal..while eating,Su and Faliq came and join us..laugh,laugh and chat,chat..soon it's 4.20..our movie strt at 4.25..so we went to the cinema and watch "ECLIPSE"..Robert Pattison was romantic and protective as usual...Taylor Lautner was hawwt and WOW as alwaes ...haha! they both are my hero...Su fall in love with Carlisle..wow! haha..then after movies,the guys were like complaining while me and Su keeps on talking about the movie..haha..then we went out to do our buisness..it was drizzling abit..after tat bought some snacks and drinks..first plan to buka botol..but then changed of mind..after buying snacks,we went to pasir ris park and lpk2..took photos and headed back home at 8+..i was fustrated with the taxis in Singapore as i waited for 1 hr+ and the taxis didn't care about me..F*** luuhh!!

kkay..saturday didn't do much..just went to plaza singapura and went to meet my anak..Mummy rindu QEISYA!! haha..she is going to turned 1 yrs soon..haha..had a cold war with wani but now we are okaay..went home at 5+..then i slept for a while..at night,just otp with MR . Malaysia guy and webbie with Aziq..

yesterday,went to madrasah then met someone..who?it's a secret..then went home and online then webbie with Aziq again then otp with MR . Malaysia guy..nothing to do..

So today,i am going to get my hair cut..not tat short,just adjust2 a bit..planned to do ceramic perm on my hair but mummy say do it befor Raya..so had to cancelled my appointment and just cut hair at RM..so wait for my update about my new hair okay?

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrep

p/s : stop this confussion !

2010-07-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

Ouh Gosh ! being lonely really does kills me..since we broke up,i only felt lonely and a huge hole in my heart..all i have was regrets..i really regret it..trust me..i never regret breaking up with someone as much as i regret breaking up with u..now,u really leave me alone..u're avoiding me..i really can't help it..all i want is to be with u and i knw u knw tat too..i really love u..i never ever love a guy as much as i love u..i love u before,i love u after,i love u now and i will forever and alwaes love u..i miss those words u used to say to me..i miss the words "Bhy" and "I love u bhy" ..why must i took those words away from u and from my life? URGGHHHH!! i hate myself for doing tis to me and u..now,u're avoiding me..u nvr reply to my msgs..i miss talking to u,being pampered by u and luagh with u..i miss those times..i really do..no one knws wat i am suffering from after breaking up with u..u are the one i need alwaes..i nvr want any other guy as much as i need u..i really don't knw wat to do and wat to say..my heart really hurts and my tears keep rolling down every second when i am alone at home..i can't smile in front of u without wanting to cry..seeing u makes me really want to cry..cry aloud infront of everyone..i wish i could tell the whole world how much i love u and only u..i don't knw if u knw how i feel knw..Please,Please,Please...all i need is u..only u and no one else.. I WANT U BACK AZIQ AS I LOVE U ONLY AND FOREVER AND ALWAES !!!!!

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrepp

2010-07-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

heyloo guys..see the pic ? first time sehy dpt amek gmbr with my mummy..haha..

kkay..today skool was as per normal..lessons then recess..sat with my sayaangs..as usual luhh..after tat lessons again..but can't concerntrate much as got big problem uhh..haixx..after skool met Fyfyie..then we waited for Aziq..nk bgy bende and do buisness luhh..after giving Aziq something,went out with Fyfyie..then on our way to do our buisness,we saw Aziq,Matiin and Aizat..soo joined them..after doing buisness say bye2 to Fyfyie,coz die nk naek bus 53,Matiin,Aizat and Aziq..i felt akward bile ckp bye2 kt Aziq..yeluh usually he will sent me to the bustop..but now,things have change and i must accept the fact..haixx..so otw home i felt sick..mcm nk pengsan..don't knw why..almost collapsed when naek over-head brigde..luckily got one nice lady nieyy tolong..thnks to tat auntie..reached home and then took a nap coz tk ley angs lgy uhh..kepale pening and body was sooo weak..slept then woke up at 5+..look at phone then saw lots of msgs and misscalls..wow! so replied back all msgs and called back those nums..then went to buy something for ibu..ibu pn blanje me also luhh..haha! then meet kak faz and abng an jap..nk bgy shawl..then here i am..i'm excited for tmrw pasal,pasal,pasal,nk tgk wayang ngn my darlingss..Su,abng Faliq and Syafiq..i plan nk ajak Aziq skali..but then he cfem tknk nye..soo i think us four will be enough..tmrw watching "ECLIPSE" ... YAAAY! at last kluar jgk citer tu..

btw,sorry for not posting about my day yesterday..was depressed and post something about my feelings for Aziq..kkay luh..gtg..ade tution soon..blaja taww! haha..kkay..byes!

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrepp

p/s : Azry , u ASS ! haha!

2010-06-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

Ouhh Goshh ! how much i miss him..i am crying every single day remembering those memories together..it's hard to let those memories go..i had let go of him..but i don't want to let go of my love..i knw it's my fault for letting him go..but i had to..i still love him..i still miss him..i still need hime..i still want him..i am really regret breaking his heart as i broke my heart too..i miss his kisses..i miss his hugs..i miss everything about him..i really want those thing back..but would he? i knw he is heartbroken deep,deep,deep inside..i can feel his pain..i want Sy[A]ziq to be like we used to be..but i guess i won't happened..Aziq,if u are reading this,i just want to say sorry..everyday i see u in skool,i can't stop the feeling of sadness and regretting of breaking up with u..u will alwaes be my saayang even if we are seperated..i will alwaes love u even if u have someone else..i made a promise to myself tat u will be my last boyfren..and i will keep to tat promise...i will alwaes wait for u and want u back..

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrepp

p/s : i can't stop loving u ! ♥

2010-06-29T19:20:00.000+08:00

heyloo guys ! how's ur day?hope it was fine..

mine today went well...it was quite boring luhh actually..did nothing and didn't lpk...today i was late for school..then i was feeling cold the whole day..even if wasn't in my class..after school went to meet Fyfyie..do our buisness then headed to Mac..otw to Mac,saw Acap and Akim..miss Akim sooo much luhh sehyy! haha..at Mac,eat and chit chat about tis and tat..went home at 4..i reached home at 4.30..cool rite? haha..then call MR . Malaysia guy but he was busy..so i just finished my homework and then slept for a while..at 6+,called MR . Malaysia guy again..this tme talk for a while..his batt low so i guessed i will call him tonite lerr..so now ibu and asyiqin are at my hse...sumpah i am tired..i can't sleep yesterday..i cried about Aziq..i really miss him..haizzz...wat to do kn?
kkayluh..till tmrw aites?

-syahsyah♥ ur minaahrepp

p/s : Am missing u every second ! ♥

2010-06-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

Heylooo-Heylooo nk kopi ke milo? hahah! I miss my blog !!!
sorry for not posting for 1 whole month..sooo sorry..been busy..

kkay..wats up with the pic syahsyah?kaay..this was the last outing of Sy[A]ziq..last saturday i broke up with aziq..why?let it just be my secret with him..soo i was sad as i really love him..haiss...
KAAAY! tukar topic..during the holidays didn't do much..first week i went to Pelegong with my school..second week had to become a tour guide for my frens from Pelegong...third week went to Eraah's chalet..last week,spent my time with my frens..Haiss..no time for myself..poor thing right?
soo today was the first day of school..it was okaay luh..class got air-con luhhh sehyy! haha..had lessons then after skool meet Nyza,Syafiq and Arif then went outside to mit Fyfyie which i didn' knw Aziq,Aizat and Faizal was there too..WOW!! haha..after tat lpk2 akt Mac for a while then i went home..call MR . Malaysia guy and then lpk2 with Ari at my hse..then acap came..so lpk2..when they went home,shower and here i am..playing the comp..
Ouh ya,i would like to say thnk u to my new frens tat is,Suhada,Sohbri @ Alang,Izmeer @ Angah @ MR . Malaysia guy and Huda..thnks for being my fren guys..so u will hear stories about them mostly too..
kayluh..untill here then..till tmrw aites?
-syahsyah♥ ur minahhrepp
p/s : I won't stop loving u ! ♥

2010-05-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not blogging yesterday..i went out the whole day..

yesterday,i thought tat i have to go to work..but bcoz of my migrain,i didn't go..but soon my migrain was okayy..soo ari txted me and met him..then while lpking with him,ari felt asleep..i took a short nap too..then saw acap..he wanted to meet andy..then soon meet andy and acap at long john..temankn andy take application form from macdonalds..then join ari and acap back..we sit and talk..then andy and acap asked me to follow them to kovan..so went there..met akim..then ari came and tagged along..we played pool at kovean..took pics with them..using my polorite camera..they all got the pics each..then say bye2 to akim then went back to sengkang..we planned to play kites..but then we went to acap's house..alamak!!i was soo akward there..his small sis misses me alot..hugged her then kissed her..then acap's dad ask me where have i been..don't knw wat to say..just kept silent..then acap's parents went out..so in his house left with me,ari,andy,acap and his maid..wow!! learn how to play the piano and drum..txted bby♥ then..after tat webbiewith twinney..missed her lots..haha..mcm bdak bodoh sehyy smlm..reached home at about 9..txted bby♥ until i fall asleep..

today,woke up early then went jogging...haha..semangat sehyy syah...then went to madrasah..after madrasah,my fav cuzzies came to my hse..danial,hariz and eraah..haha...love them lots..i was getting ready to go to ecp with family as mak in's grandchild bday..bby♥ txted me..wow! haha..missed him lots..then took pics with cuzzies using my polorite camera..haha..at 6,went to ecp..reached there,eat then me and sis went to the rock to take pics..haha..had a great time with her..bby♥ still txted me..haha..today he was soooo sweet siaa...haha..then went home at 9+..reached home then meet andy and acap straight..haizzz...i went back at 11..bby♥ was supper dupper worried about me..poor thing..jgn mrh2 ye bhy?nnti cpt tue...haha..

meeting bby♥ tmrw..nk lps kn rindu..haha..phm2 je luh..kay guys..i will be going to negeri sembilan this tuesday till friday...hope u guys missed me...haha..till here..bye !

-syahsyah♥

p/s: bhy,u're my one and only ! btol bhy ! ♥

2010-05-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not posting yesterday..why?it's bcoz tat lots of happy things happened yesterday..

kkay..yesterday planned to mit bby♥..before tat i mit ari to get my typhoid..after going to hougang plaza,took a cab to send ari to anchorvale and then i went to mit bby♥ straight...yesterday,mcm biase,they played takraw..so i was quite lonely..i just read the book tat cikgu gave..bby♥ blm strt bace pon..haha..then talked to ajaq about myrawr...awwww..even they are now not together,but they still love each other...hehe..soooo cutee..after tat treated ajaq,asrie and umar macdonald..asrie and ajaq wanted to eat mcspicy while umar wants the new quarter pounder..but bby♥ silap dgr and thought tat umar wants a cotton bud..haha...jauh siaa...haha..went back at arnd 6..bby♥,ayuz and mat nor accompany me to the bustop as they wanted to go to mac also..ayuz was crazy tat time..haha..tibe2 sehyy..then joke arnd with them..soon my bus came..say goodbye to bby♥..still no kiss..haixx...

then i received a cal from ari at about 9+..ari says tat andy wants to meet me..so waited for them downstairs..soon they arrived..andy and me went to the stairs and talk..i was crying like hell..i realised tat i was the cause of the A's "break-up"..i beg andy to forgive me so he did..then i went to talk to acap and yan..i ask for their forgiveness too..they too forgive me..to andy,thank u so much for wanting to accept me back in ur life as ur bestest sister..to acap,sorry and plzz luhh gy cari pmpn yng lebih baek dari syah..to yan,i miss u sooo much garfieldkuu..haha..to the A's,thx once again.. i am really speechless..korng akan sentiase di hati syahsyah..A's sampai mati kkay? sister and brothers sampai mati jgk..

after lpking with them for a while,tetibe bby♥ txted me..it was supperr sweet siaa..it goes like this :

bby♥ : bhy thanks for the shirt ngan the ***. nnt kalau i dh keje i bayar u alik k syng ?
me: keje? keje ape bhy? bhy,even though kite baru 1 month,i dh anggap u mcm suami i. i don't mind wasting my money for u. just don't ever hurt me bhy.
bby♥ : k. i promise u tat i wont hurt u k syng. u la satu2 nye pmpn yg ada dlm hati i. kalau u tinggal kan i,i akan mati agaknye bab u la nyawe i bhy.
me : bhy,u pn nyawa i. i tk akan tinggalkn u bhy. bhy, sehari i tk dgn u,hidup i dh tk bernyawa lgy bhy. i cume ade u dlm hati i. kemane2 i pegy,i kalau bley nk u di sisi i.

then we txted about going to sentosa..but me and amyrawr planned to bring our bby♥ to universal studios..we are saving some money to bring them there this june holidays..then bby♥ txted me this :

bby♥ : myrawr dh alik angan ajaq ?
me : blm.but i tgh nk buat drng patch. i tknk tgk dorng break uh bhy. i suke tgk drng. cute and swit couples. kalu bley i nk kite jdi mcm dorng. as in swit and cute couples. nt only tat. ink kite be happy and lasting couples too.
bby♥ : k. as u wish . i will do it.

tat nite ican't even sleep..kept thinking of all the wonderfull things tat happened to me in just one day yesterday..now my life is complete..i have my one and only bby♥ ,my saayaangs,A's and my family..i love all of them..don't ever leave me guys..i really love u guys especially u bby♥..

-syahsyah♥

p/s : bhy,i am going to miss u ! ♥

2010-05-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not blogging yesterday..

yesterday did nothing much..so i guess nothing to post luhh..

today morning there is no skool..but we got PTC..haha..today mummy ade sikit giler2..she even wanna mit bby♥..haha..today i manje2 with her..haahaa..had a great time listening to her stories..almost cried..haha..after my PTC and having breakfast,went to sister's skool to take her report book..after tat went home..rest for a while then get ready..had plan with nyza,fyie and areena..at about 1+,went to cp to meet nyza..took out some money then wait for nyza..nyza soon arrived and we took 80 to bugis..meet fyie at banquet near raffles hospital..eat then took some pics..we then fetch areena at the mrt station..after tat went to bugis street to shop..haha..today i bought lots of stuff just for $150..haha..nyza,fyie and lia get a cap from me..this is especially for our trip..haha..after shopping,nyza went off..me,fyie and areena went to arab street to sheesha..haha..first time sehyy..meet some new frens there,izzy and michelle..haha..ingt sehyy name..then at 8+ took cab home..lots of things to carry...haha..reached home and rushed for the toilet..haha..so now i am doing nothing..am feeling tired..i miss bby♥ alot..this week nvr lpk with bby♥ sgt..i miss his smile,i miss his hug,i miss his jokes,i miss his kiss and i miss being by his side...i just miss him soo much..this june holidays also susah nk mit..i swear to Allah tat i am going to miss him freaking much...haha..

kkayluh..tats all i have..wanna rest..soooo damn tired..hahaha..

-syahsyah♥

p/s : i miss u luhh bhy ! ♥♥

2010-05-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

hey guyss..

today woke up as per normal..then went to skool at 7.05..siang kn? today wani nvr go skool..so i was lucky luhh..haha..i get to sit with sahira..tkya duduk belakang sorng2..haha..then got some talk...then went for recess..sat with kiekie,lia and nyza..today fyie ponteng skola..haha..while eating,we talk about someone..haixx...sedih pe..ade ke she say tat i snatched bby♥ away from her?haizz...then they call bby♥ to tell about this..alamak! haha..then i ask bby♥ to help me put my plate..he doesn't want but he wants to carry my beg..haha..tetibe lak...haha..bby♥ carry my beg mcm permanent gitu..haha..then we got comic drawing workshop..fakheerah didn't came to skool as she was sick..but lucky i was there to finish the comic strips..haahaa..after skool meet bby♥ and kiekie semue at canteen..then went out..lupe nk kasi bby♥ duit..so i waited outside skool while lia and nyza went to heartland mall to amek fyie for our breifing..haha..me and bby♥ did our stuff..not tat "stuff" luh..haha..after doing our stuff,we went down..lucky for me as i meet fyie,lia and nyza..so say goodbye to bby♥ and went back to skool...we met nyza's mum outside skool and went in the skool for our breifing..haha..after the breifing semue,i planned to mit bby♥ at hougang mall..so txted him then went to hougang mall with putri..mit bby♥,faizal and ahmad at hougang mall..saw farah jepon there..haha..she look exactly like eraah sehyy..haha..then bby♥ went to toilet..so me and putri waited outside..lps tu we saw ***** and his gf..alamak!!quickly i tarik putri hand and masuk toilet..i ask putri to see if he and hid gf dh blaah...when line clear,we cpt2 trn..waited for the guys at macdonalds..and there i saw chacha and iqaah...say hello to them..then faizal called and ask us to mit them at a blok..so mit them there..soon enough putri when back to skool..so i continue lpk2 with them..at abt 5+ gytu,went to hougang mall and eat..bby♥ lpr but don't knw wat to eat..haha..after eating then we went home..today sedih sehyy tk dpt kiss dari bby♥..)':

kkay..suddenly i feel like karaoking...bile ehy??hmmm...hahah..

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i miss ur kiss bhy ! ♥

2010-05-24T19:40:00.000+08:00

hey guys..

kkay..today went to skool as per normal..then we got talk and comic drawing workshop..it was okay luhh..then after skool,met fyie,kiekie and bby♥ at canteen..then went to bustop as we planned to ge to woodlands as kiekie wants to pierce her tongue...met ayuz at the bustop in front of our skool..laugh,laugh,laugh and chat,chat,chat...hehe..then the bus came...i have to be separated from bby♥..sad sehyy....but nvm..heheh..we stop at hougang mall and took mrt to woodlands..jauh siaa...then when we reached woodlands,treat fyie and kiekie pastamania...wow! haha..then we went to woodlands point..there we go to the piercing shop..but the guy which usually pierce the tongue was not there...then i decide to pierce my nose..haha..shocking rite?it was not painful..it just felt like someone is pincing my nose...haha..then went back to causeway point to buy my nose stud and earsticks..fyie was searching for her barbell..but she can't find one..kiekie soon went home while me and fyie went to do our stuff...fyie helped me to change my nose stud to the transparent erastick..now i coud feel the pain..blood then came out..but we nvr panicked luhh...tears strt rolling down my cheek as it was super painfull..but it was okayy soon enough..then went home after tat and here i am...heheh..

HAPPY 1 MONTH BBY♥

as u guys knw tat today is my 1 month with bby♥..just a few words to say to bby♥ : bhy,i knw tat we've been together for one month..i would just like to let u knw tat i really love u..thnks for everything bhy..ur concern,ur love,u smile and everything..u made my life complete bhy..i really do love u and i can't bear to let u go..byhy,i promised tat i will try my best to make our relationship last forever..remeber tat i want u to be my last boyfren and my foreverlasting hubby..i love u soooo much bhy..muackzz! ♥

-syahsyah♥

p/s : there's only u in my heart bhy ! ♥

2010-05-23T18:47:00.000+08:00

hey guys..sorry for not blogging yesterday and on friday..just don't feel like blogging..

on friday did nothing much at skool..went to an art exhibition for half a day..really love the art pieces there..we were soo lucky(the malay pupils) tat cikgu syazwani followed us as it was her last day there...really gonna missed her..took a pic with her..haha..awww...sooo sad..then after skool,lpk with bby♥..then went home and changed coz wanna see bby♥ and the rest play takraw..meet ajaq and went to 185 to mit his frens which i knw one of them..when we are at 185,saw kak faz and abng an..haha..happy sehyy..after ajaq frens reached,we went to 940..stayed there until 7+ i think..i'm not going to tell u guys anything tat happened after tat..don't wanna think abt it again..

yesterday went to bugis with kak ina..we ate and walk around bugis..at 4 went home..mendaqq sehyy duduk rumah..did nothing just played the comp and watch tv..haha..watched Akademi Fantasia at 9..congrats to SHAHIR for winning..i think he deserves it..haha..good job there SHAHIR..bby♥ slept early...so just spent my time doing nothing and talk with amyrawr on the phone..haixx..wat a boring day..

today just went to madrasah..and currently i am playing farmville with hariz..today i am a lil' bit beylooo..haha..it's all bcoz of hariz..irratating sehhy die..haha..kayluh..wanna play farmiville..till tmrw ayee?

-syahsyah♥

p/s: can't wait for tmrw bhy ! ♥

2010-05-22T09:34:00.000+08:00

i will update my blog tonight..sorry for the late post...

2010-05-20T17:47:00.000+08:00

hey guys..feeling bored right now..

kkay...today woke up at 6.30..then went to skool..can't remember i reached skool at wat time..then had art..first period..bby♥ txted me..then txted a few random things...then bby♥ wants to pinjam my ipod touch,so went down a gave it to ayuz to pass it to bby♥..after art was history and physics..slept during those period..very tiredd..then recess went to buy mango juice..hehe..then lpk at toilet for a while..saw hani and the gang..chat with them as i was waiting for fakheerah..then fyie and nyza came in..haha..then after fakheerah was done,went to hall..saw ayuz and bby♥ there..sat and lpk with them..then bby♥ strted to kacau2 me..tk baek sehyy..thn last period was mother tongue..today was our lesson with cikgu syazwani..gonna missed her..so took some pics with her..after skool,met fyie and nyza..saw bby♥..i asked back for my ipod touch and something..then went of school with iffat and then saw areena..we do our normal thingy then went back to school..temankn nyza go toilet,then gave bby♥ his thing back and went out of school again..fyie and areena waited at the kedai mamak..iffat was gone soon enough..haha..so me,fyie and areena went to boon keng to my grandma hse..bought for grandma rambutan..haha..then saw qeisya..haha..my cutest niece..ooopsss! no,my cutest anak angkat..haha..got permission from her mother to adopt her daughter..haha..soon enough qeisya will called me mummy syah! hhahaha...played with qeisya..but she merenggek as she doesn't knw fyie and areena..haha..i make her laugh luhh...hehe..then ask bibik nor to buy something..after she came back,took a pic with my anak then go home...qeisya was watching us as we go..haha..qeisya,mummy syah saayaang qeisya!! haha...so now just waiting for bby♥ to reply to my msg..haha...boring sehyy...haixxx...

kayluh..enjoy the pics!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: bhy,cpt reply !!

2010-05-19T18:59:00.000+08:00
to bby♥ :

"sering kau tanyakan,cintaku dimana..
sering kau menuntut,ucapan asmara..
tak mungkin berdusta perasaan ini..
dan kau tak mengerti dihati..

dan sebenarnya engkau yang ku cinta..
permata dalam rindu ku hadiah untukmu..
saling memerlukan bila berjauhan..
harap engkau mengerti perasaan ini..

kelu resah,bukan sandaran..
dan gelisah,bukan hukuman..
kerana kau yang ku idamkan,bukannya mainan..
seandainya kau mengetahui,
hanya enkau yang ku cintai.."

this is the most wonderfull lyrics i've ever heard..and it's really meaningful to me bhy...i really want u to knw tat i really love u..my love towards u will never end..if u leave me,i will kill myself as i am left with nothing bhy..believe me..i really do love u from the bottom of my heart..Sya[A]ziq ♥!

2010-05-19T18:20:00.001+08:00

hey guys...how's ur day?

kkay..mine strted when i woke up at 6.20 am..went to shower..then bby♥ txted me..i was having a lil' of fever and i was quite dizzy...bby♥ advise me to stay at home..but i don't want..mendaq uhh..better go to skool..at least i get to meet my frens..went to skool at 7.15..at skool did nothing much..lots of free period luhh...exam over maah..txted bby♥ je when bored..i got to know tat i am the highest for my malay..haha..at last i get to beat the indonesians...hehe..then i received msg from nyza..i was shocked siaa..almost cried..those who knws,let it be our secrets...bcoz of tat,i injured my leg..until now the pain is still there..then i saw nyza and the rest called me..mls uhh nk lyng drng..i am quite hurt by the msg..after skool,mit bby♥ at canteen...i wasn't talking tat much..then i show bby♥ the msg..he also was shocked...wat to do?..bby♥ and me then walked to the bstop..talk a few random things while waiting for the bus..my head was spinning alrdy..my bus came first..didn't kiss bby♥ as he was sick..so nvm..just board the bus and txted bby♥..today's plan was cancelled as abng an they all planned to go to sentosa..so i went home straight...was moody at first..but then i became gyler2...hhaa..aishah was beside me..then we strted to post nonsense things at facebook. like "would u marry me?" and "i will be married to aishah"..haha..kekek sehyy..then bby♥ say he want to marry me..so i post at facebook..and guess wat?my makcik and kak mar comment it..haha..they thought i was serious..padehal2..haha..bby♥ went offline soon..so now currently i am chatting with fyie..nothing much...bored siaaa!!

btw,here's a song which is soooo meaningfull..just listen..sorry if it's in malay..but wat i knw,it's my fav song..i dedicate this song to bby♥ and those whom i loved..kkayluh..enjoy kkays?

-syahsyah♥

p/s: do u really love me bhy ?

2010-05-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

heylooo world!! hahaha..

today woke up at 6.25...haha...siang pe? haha...my sis didn't sleep so she woke me up soo damn early..so reached school abit early...my mood was happy-go-lucky..but after receiving my maths papers,i strted to cry...i failed my maths..haix..after school meet bby♥,fyie and nyza...they were trying to cheer me up..haixx...so damn moody tadi..sorry bhy..went out school with nyza and fyie...today nvr lpk with bby♥..bby♥ asked me to lpk with my frens pulak..sooo caring..then saw areena outside skool..haha...fyie's so called mataey luhh gytukk..haha...then went to kedai mamak and lpk2..still feeling down..bby♥ also asked me if i am okay..i was abit okayy..but i am having fever now..haizz..then went to mac and eat,lpk2..after eating,went to heartland mall and jalan2..by then,my mood was quite okay alrdy..thx to nyza,fyie and areena..at about 5,went to meet abng an and kak faz...rinduuu gylerr kt drng...i miss the moments we used to be together..i would like too say Happy Advanced Bday to my kakak kesyngan...hehe...love u akak! i love u too abng an ! haha...tkot nnti abng an jeles..hehe..so tmrw we all wanted to have our reunion and celebrate kak faz bday..hope everything would be okayy by tmrw...insyallah..hehe..

kkay..i have something to share with guys actually..as some of u knw nw tat i am under the courts order...my mum and dad is fighting for custody...i want to ask for ur opinion..shld i stay with my dad or mum? i am really confused now!!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: love u lots bhy ! ♥

2010-05-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

hey guys..just got back from hospital...atuk was admitted...don't knw how to explain..but got something to do with his fly..hahaha..

kkay...woke up at 8+..ade due berok woke me up by coming to my hse..thx ehy myrawr and dewi..hehe..sacarstic nye syah..haahaa..then went to choose clothes...after tat just wore towel around me..malas nk pakai t-shirt as i wanna shower..then sat on myrawr's pantat..haha..saje jee..then she go keja2 me at pukul2 my pantat...AMYRAWR PEROGOL!!! haha...then went to shower and get ready...keep on disturbing amyrawr...haha..serious uh,she's such a raper...hahaha...then went out at 11.45...went to rp and met din..then at 1.30,went to meet bby♥...waited bby♥ at bustop..today bby♥ wore his fav monkey shirt...ehy bhy?haha..then went to sit down at ayuz blok there...just chat2 at joke around...then we went to buy drinks and went up to the second floor as bby♥ wants to to his stuff...haha..for those who knws,phm2 je luhh ape tu...then after he finished,we just chill arnd...skip the rest of the parts...hehe..then suddenly feel giddy...aduhh! my head went spinning sehy..poor bby♥..sorry taww bhy for making u worried..then we went down..i buy my fav juice..hehe..bby♥ knws wat is tat..kn bhy?haha..then lpk for a while...head still spinning luhh..bby♥ was damn worried as i can't really balanced myself..haha..at 5,went home..need to go to hospital luhh kn...then bby♥ sent me to bustop as per normal..

currently am chatting with bby♥ and twinney..tibe2 my body strted to itch..ISHHHHKKK!! i don't knw wats happening sehy..i have some advice to twinney :
twinney,jgn sedih2 lgy taww? be happy aites?u're single now taaw..enjoy ur single life ! hahaha..

to bby♥ : bhy,i'm sorry for just now..i btol2 menyusahkn u..thnks for ur concern taww bhy..i love u sooo much luhh gylerr! hehe..MUACKSS!!

kkayluh..gtg..byes!

-syahsyah♥

p/s : AMYRAWR PEROGOL ! haha!

2010-05-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

hey guys...sorry for the late update again..

kkay..just came back from family outing...today woke up at 11 as slept at 2 yesterday...tiredd siaa..then txted bby♥..at 12.15,went to shower as i need go madrasah..then after madrasah,went to get ready to go out with mummy and her boyfren...haixx...was moody at first about some family stuff....but then i was okayy abit..txted bby♥ the whole time..haha..really missed him siaa...bhy,i miss u luhh gylerr ! hahaha...then went to eat at Ramen Ten....haha..soo nice siaa..after eating,we went to karaoke..again? haha..i've been going to karaoke three times this week...FUUUH!! pengsan...cfem hilang suare..haha..took some pics when boredome strikes...haha...bby♥ sleep soo early,as per normal...haha..at 12,we went home..singgah mac for a while as my sis wanted to buy some food..haha..then went home straight..haha...today nothing much to post sehyy...the only thing i knw is tat,i tk sbr nk meet bby♥ tmrw..hahaa..kkay luh..tats all i have..till' tmrw aites? byes!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: bhy,lgy 7 more days gylerr ! haha ♥

2010-05-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

hey guys...sorry for the late post..haha...just came back...very tiring sehyy..

kkay..today woke up at 9+...txted bby♥ which was on his way to play soccer..it's sooo early siaa...kkay..then i didn't knw where to go today...mendaq siaa duduk rumah...so i called myrawr and asked her to meet me...so at arnd 1,met myrawr..went to 150 and waited for ajaq...but i went home first as muke and rambut masai gylerr..haha...asked myrawr to txt me if she can go out...so at about 2,patonah came along..i get ready then went out to meet ari downstairs..lpk2 a while with dzul,then me,ari and patonah went to rp..i need to submit some documents...then we ate at ari' or soon to be my workplace which is mac..haha...then bby♥ txted me which makes me cry for a while...it goes like this :

bby♥ : Bhy i rindu u la syng .
me : Aik,smlm baru jumpe. Tk kn tk puas bhy? i pon rindu u bhy.
bby♥ : Ckp orng . u pun same . smlm jumpe dh rindu .
me : i sentiase rindu u bhy . u tu je.
bby♥ : i pulak. Ape i buat? Hati i hanya untuk u jek bhy .
me : Awww..i am going to cry bhy .
bby♥ : jgn nangis la. i tk le tipu hati i yng hati i untuk u jek bhy .

hahaa...i cried and the ppl including patonah semue tk at me...malu sehyy...niey semue bby♥ punye pasal...hehe..then amyrawr called me..she say she can go out..so went to her hse with patonah...she baru habes mandi..haha..then at 4+,we went to e-hub...again?haha..we planned to play bowling,but full..so we planned to watch a movie,but the line was soooo long...so we went karaoke at K-box...haha...we sing,sing,sing...then at 9,we went home..waited for the bus..then suddenly putri txted me somehing which makes me kinda sad and moody...after clearing things out with ______ and bby♥,feel a lil' better...reached amyrawr's hse at about 10...cooked for her and ate along...then amyrawr say something which makes me laugh...haha..wanna knw?hhaa..kkay..she was asking abt my bby♥..then she said, "mataey kau ade HIV1 ehyy?"hahahahaa....kekek paaa...myrawr,myarwr...she wanted to say H1N1,but she don't knw...hahaha...then went in her room and baring2 while talking...both of our bby♥ didn't reply our msgs...so txted them random things...haha..baru reply..haha...wanna knw?nope..it's our secrets...haha...then mummy called...she fetched me from anyrawr's hse...and here i am..haha...

kkayluh..wanna slip...tiredd siaaa...byes!

-syahsyah♥

p/s : 8 more days taww bhy ! ♥

2010-05-15T10:29:00.000+08:00

hey guys...sorry for not updating my blog these past few days..been busy with mid-year and lpking with frens...so let's strt with wat happened on the 13/05/10..

~13/05/10 : after maths paper 2,went home as bby♥ gy mane entah..hehe...met amyrawr and hazlina...we went for our breakfast and then send hazlina home..me and amyrawr went to my hse..i asked her to help me pick my clothes..at last just wore a simple top and leggings with my sis jacket...it was lucky i wore a jacket as it was raining...soo went out from home at 1.45 with amyrawr...waited for the bus at last the bus came...reached pasir ris at home 2+...so waited for abng yayan..at last he came...haha..he changed a lot..he's more chubbier...haha..then he asked me wat i feel like eating..but seriously i don't know...so we took a bus and went to e-hub...there we saw Hei!Sushi..i suddenly feel like eating japanese food...so we went in and ordered our drinks...abng yayan was sooo jakun as he's been missing a lot in singapore..haha..we both ordered teriyaki chicken udon..haha...after eating,we went around e-hub..still planning wat to do..then abng yayan say tat he feel like singing...so yeah,we went to K-box to karaoke...haha...sang a lot of songs...it's the first time i hear him sing...suare power dok!..haha..i also got to knw tat he used to be the Bedok North Secondary Idol...wow! amazing right?haha..then his fren came and tag along..the three of us took turns to sing..haha..abng yayan and his fren really do have a great voice..nice!after karaokeing,we went to the arcade..we played a lot of games...then took newprints..haha...dh lame tk amek...after tat abng yayan fren needs to go home..so say bye2 to her...then me and abng yayan continue playing the arcade...after tat we went to eat..it's about 9.30 pm...haha..we ate burger king as abng yayan said tat in Brunie,there is no burger king..haha...so while eating,we chat2...after eating,we went home...my mum asked abng yayan to sleep at our hse...and soo he did..haha...really had a great time...the pic up there is my abng kesyngan..haha..

14/05/10 : yesterday had my chem paper...finished at 9.15..luckily i can do it..after exam,bby♥ ask me to mit him near the toilet on the the third floor...let's skipped the part...bby♥ went home at 11+...so i meet nyza,lia and fyie at mac...haha..we chat and joke arnd..i went home at 12.30...amyrawr came to my hse when i reached..we are going to watch our bby♥ playing takraw...so at 3,meet ajaq and his coz..we took 88..after alighting,we have to walk a lil' bit...haha...when we reached,me and amyrawr went to hougang point...we just walked arnd and buy some food..saw ari and his girl arnd there...after buying our stuff,we went back and lpk2 with faizal as the rest were playing takraw..then tibe2 i saw ari heading towards our place...say hi to him and he lpk jap...then he went home with amyrawr..ajaq sent them..i stayed until 7+...bby♥ sent me to the bustop...we chat for a while..when the bus reached,kissed bby♥ and went off...something happened after tat..but mls uhh nk cite...

kkay luh..tats all i have...will be updating tonight..bye2!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: loving u alwaes bhy ! ♥

2010-05-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

hey guys...just finished studying...tmrw no paper..but just revise through a bit..

kkay..today had my physics paper..it's managable...luckily i get to answer almost all of the questions...confidents is important..haha..kkay..after the paper,went to the canteen...meet bby♥ and the rest then..after they all ate,they went off..i need to stay back as there's a breifing on the Australia trip...i was quite sad coz didn't get to lpk with bby♥...waited for nyza,lia and fyie..at about 10.15,the came to the canteen..lia went hoe straight...so me,nyza and fyie went to the G.O to collect my IC..haha..after tat went to the maths room but they say the meeting was being postponed...so apelgy,we went to mac to eat..i treat them..haha...khai sec 1 and hadi joined us skali...credits to khai for taking the photo..then me,khai and fyie went to meet faizal at blok 15...hadi and nyza went off...as we walked,me and fyie talked about lots of things...haha...she asked my pathetic questios...kehpo je fyie..haha...then faizal came..he and hadi went to buy something..so me and fyie just play the playground..kembali ke zaman kanak2...haha..it's been so loong i played the swing..haha..then we all went to do our special stuff...txted bby♥..me and faizal wanted to lpk with him...so after finishing our stuff,we went to serangoon..fyie and khai went off...waited for bby♥ under his blok..then bby♥ said he was at haziq's hse...bingit skjap..then me and faizal plan to kene kn him..so i just join in..haha..then we moved to ahmad's blok...bby♥ and ayuz soon came..i show my sulking face..kononnye..haha..bby♥ try to comfort me..but i just so called don't bother..then i asked faizal to tell bby♥ the truth..bby♥ pulak yng merajok...i comfort him...i suddenly cried...ouh gosh! my first time crying just bcoz my bby♥ merajok...nvr cried before sehyy..then rupe2nye,bby♥ was just testing me...haha...terkene balek...haha..then me,ayuz,bby♥,faizal and ahmad lpk2 je...nothing much..at 6+,bby♥ sent me and faizal to the bustop..laugh a lot...hahaha...when the bus came,just say bye to bby♥...no goodbye kiss today..haha...so currently now i am tired...i can't feel my legs...i am stressed about the upcoming paper too...feel like crying sehyy...haixx..

kayluh..tats all i have...

-syahsyah♥

p/s: discover something new today !♥

2010-05-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey guys..how are u? i just finished eating...mcm nk muntah..haha..

kkay..today had my mother tongue paper...quite easy luh...i finished doing my paper faster than the others..so slpet for 1 hour..hahhaa..after tat met bby♥ at the canteen..he and ayuz was eating...then the rest came...arif just collected his IC then kiekie pon amek..mcm bangga gituk dpt IC..haha..ayuz also went to collect his IC...hhaaha..after they finished their food,we went to the park opposite our school...lpk2 there for a while then went to heartland mall...otw to heartland mall,there was a rat...i am scared of rat so my walking distance were far away from the others..after the rat disappeared,i walked faster....then ayus kicked a cockroach...lgy luhh gelii...luckily it didn't kene me..if not i will be shouting like mad..haha..then bby♥ make fun of me...tk baek sehyy bhy..then went to Mac as khai and ahmad wanted to eat...bby♥ played taptap as he tk puas hati i got 500000+...hahaha..bersbr je luhh bhy..in the end,he can't beat my score...awwww...kesian,kesian..hehe..then went to heartland mall..we just walked arnd..then we all went to popular..ehy,not popular..but library..hehe...kn bhy?library ehy?hehhee...me and ayuz were laughing at bby♥...haha...then they just walked arnd doing nothing..bby♥ kacau me bcoz of my socks...irratating taww bhy...then bby♥ and me went home...the rest,tk tau gy mane...as me and bby♥ waited for our bus,we just joke arnd...bby♥ bus arrived first..so kissed bby♥ and he went off...i was txting myrawr...planned to meet her and ajaq..then soon my bus arrived..boarded the bus and off i am..suddenly,someone boarded the bus...ouh shit! it's ________. he was with his fren..irratating gyler..he asked about my life and soo on..i txted bby♥ at the same time..so i didn't lyn them..when i arrived,i went down the bus..those irratating bustards follow me too...luckily i saw my fren's boyfren..i borrow him for awhile..those bustards saw him and they went off...thx to ******* for helping me...hahaha...kkay..then meet myrawr and ajaq at KFC rm...they were waiting for me..so bought the food and eat with themm..ajaq was soo hungry..then we went to 185 to lpk jap then we headed to 150 to continue our lpking...haha..i was so bored ad i was solo..bby♥ wasn't there...so i just went to sleep..when i woke up,the time was 3...went home straight as my duty was cancelled...haha...bby♥ didn't reply my msg..so i was a bit sad...i just lay down while listening to music..then myrawr came over..haha..we just chat and talk abut someone...haha..bby♥ soon txted me..rupe2nye,he was sleeping..ooopppss!!..hahaha...today spent my time mostly at home..so nothing much to blog about..bby♥ is having a fever...hope u are okay bhy...i am really worried...haixxx...

kkayluh..tats all i have...cioaaww~

-syahsyah♥

p/s: get well soon bhy ♥ !