three weeks more to hari raya..hmm...i miss the moment when i used to celebrate with all of my family..the first Raye i had in sengkang with my dad,mum,sisters and abng Yayan..not to forget my other family members..miss tat time..this year , my dad would not be here to celebrate Raye with..how i miss the moment..i knw i will always have my uncles with me..but they are different from my dad..my own dad..haisss...i miss him alot..he is always there when i need him..but now?it's been soo long since i celebrated Raye with my dad..i want to kiss his hand to ask for forgiveness..i want to kiss his cheeck..i want to hug him..i want to cry together with him..whenever he called during Raye , i will cry..my tears will keep on rolling..i can't take this anymore..i need him..only him...i need my ABAH ! my one and only dad..i can't bear to ask for forgiveness through the phone..i can't see his sincerity.. i want to see his tears..i miss his tears..i want to cry together with him..i just want to be with him every Raye..i don't want anything else..i jut want him and my family..i want us to be together like we used to be..happy family..this year , i have everything..my friends , my CINTAs , my family and my love oness..but i don't have my Abah..i just want him..i have to be far away from wat i have this Raye , i will do it..as long as i have my Abah..as long as i can celebrate Raye with him..i miss him...sumpah i do ! i just want him right now..only he cld mend my broken heart..he's one of the reasone i still am strong..everytime i am hurt bcoz of guys , he will cheer me up..he will say to me , "kak , life isn't about guys . If he is not for u , u might find someone better in future . Concerntrate on ur studies . I am sure u will find someone better . " I miss those word..and i really need one now..i wih i cld tell him tat i am sooo hurt now..i want him to councel me..he's the only one who can do tat..only u Abah ! please come back soon..i really miss and need u...
-syahsyah ur love
p/s : i love u , Abah !
