SyahSyah♥

heyy...yay!today it's the first day of school...cnt really sleep ysterday so i just listen to songs..i slept at 2..then woke up at 4..sahur mahh...WANI didn't sleep the whole night..she busy talking otf with her fren...idc if she used her hp..but she used mine...Grrrr~
sahur ate cup noodles...waited for the water to boiled take hrs...Arrrrgghhh...so just poured in the water when it it half boiled..cnt thn...after sahur,i went back to sleep...luckily today school started at 8+...so at least get some rest..then at 7 i woke up and get ready...7.30 take the bus to school...poor mummy...she soo tired...reached school at 8.20...then chat with frens...at 9,lesson resumes...

after school got oral...hah...sooo scared siiaa..but luckily the question alll damn easy...at 3.30 got drama workshop..had lots of fun there..get to act all tat stuff..haha..then at 5 catch the bus to CP to buy food for buke...i buy only for me...haha..evil siaa...then arnd 6 i reached home and waited for time to buke...then slacked and blah,blah,blah..haha..

kkayy..to make my post interesting,i would make a review on my day without him...haiss...this will start today...so u guys would knw how my life without him...so let it begin!

~Day 1~

hmmmm....life really sucks without him txting me every hr or probably seconds..
in school all i can do is try not to look at my hp every hr..i try to say to myself tat
we're just frens...FRIENDS!!so i have to try to accept the fact...the real fact tat we
are just friends...haiss...to summarise my day today,i just have to say that ,
MY LYF SUCKS!!!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: hmmmm....<___>

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

10:58 PM

hey...just wanna update some things..remember tat i gt post about ACIIK being different lately?today i found out why..he is not tat ready to be in a relationship..yea..sad..i can't tahan my tears from rolling down..so just let them rolled down..but we decide to be friends..maybe it's because we are so fast in this thing..remember the bet or deal?yeah..it's because of tat..maybe we get too over excited about this bet/deal..but everything is ouhkayy now..we talk over it and we decide to be friends and to knw each other better..we also wld stay contact with each other..hah,unbelievable..but just to make it clear,this doesn't mean i am available...*wink wink*..i may be single but not available..hehe...why?hmmm...i guess u might knw the answer..i am sick of knwing new guys and falling into their stupid games...this doesn't include ACIIK..i just wanna stick to my friends now and maybe try to concentrate on my studies..i still remember wat ACIIK say just now, 'once bitten,twice shy'...nice phrase..so i hope tat i wont be receiving msgs or e-mails form guys asking am i available or not..i won't entertain them..really..i wont entertain them..hehe..kkay..so here i am ending my love story with ACIIK...i will update u guys if something good happens...(:

-syahsyah♥

p/s: u're still my everything after wat we go through..

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

12:04 AM

hey...sry ysterday didn't post..been busy..today too i can't post too much..lately i've been falling sick..i am always having a headache..it's been 4 days...and now i am having a fever..i don't knw why..i can't even have enough sleep lately..it's maybe because i kept thinking of him..but nvm..soo today i just help my mum making kuih for raye..my condition isn't fit actually..but i just helped her for the sake of raye..tats all i have for today...sry..i am really sick..my headache is becoming worst...

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i feel betrayed by him . ):

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

7:48 PM

hey..just got back from AMYRAWR's hse...had fun there...haha...crazzzzyyy us...hehe..kkaay...actually we were supposed to go to our tarian..but then her father doesn't allowed her to go...so i stayed at her hse..lpk there..then my stomach startes to cramp...very painful siaaa...so followed AMYRAWR go to Rivervale Mall..buy some food..then accompany her to meet AJAQ...haisss...i'm quite jeles seeing them..hah..but i tried to entertain myself...sing songs,and think of wat to msg to ACIIK..longg storyyy...hehe..so i did send him something...6 pages long i think..haha....wanna knw??blueks!! sorry...only ACIIK cld read it...after tat i waited for his reply...OMG!i feel so dead without him txting me...i didn't realized tat i cried..hah..but i wipe it away before AMYRAWR or AJAQ realized it...i accompany them for 2 hrs and we went home take cab..haha...short distance sehyy..then at AMYRAWR's hse,i buke..can't take it..my stomach damn hurt siaa..after tat we look through for songs..then we record video and sing..haha..still got the video but not gonna post it...our voice like shit..hehehe..then saw ACIIK online..chat with him then i plan to go home..AMYRAWR sent me down..then i waited for the bus..took 136 home..when walking,saw a grp of boys under the blok...so iratating sehyy..then went up quickly..and here i am...chatting with my one and only sayang ACIIK while blogging and listening to music..haha..
tats all i have for u guys...see ya!

-syahsyah♥

p/s:it have been two days i have never heard ur voice syng..): how i miss u sooo much.):

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

10:09 PM

heyy there...just felt bored and decided to blog...just now chat with a friend..just knew him about almost a month..yea..he's been giving me a wake up msg every morning..haha..he said it's for waking me up for sahur...haha..yea,so thnks to him..he just txted me..but i don't reply..there's reasons..but we stayed friends even he knws i am with ACIIK...then FARHAN,my sis ex's fren,chat with me..he asked me a few random questions abt ACIIK...he too can't believe i am with ACIIK...haha...even i at first can't believe it..

so just now i txted ASYRAF..i wanted my guitar back..but he didn't reply..even my calls weren't answered..haiss...wondering why...today ACIIK seems different..he didn't quite txted me..he seems soo silent and tat makes me feel akward..i wondered wats bothering him...i want him to be cheerful..i want to forget wat had happened ysterday..as wat the say,"let bygones be bygones"..hmmm...i just want ACIIK to tell me wats bothering him...

-syahsyah♥

p/s: syng,i miss u so much and i want to knw wats bothering u soo much . ):

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

12:02 PM

hey...i just feel like posting today...so i am gonna post even my day was a very moody day...
firstly today i felt alone..my mum and small sis went out with all of her friends..left my and my other sis...but still i felt lonely as my sis didn't talk to me...soo i just spent the whole day in my room..without even coming out..then i called AMYRAWR...while talking to her,AJAQ was added in the conversation...suddenly i felt like i am disturbing them..so i went out of their conversation..then i called ERAWR,but she was buzy too...talking to her boyfriend...so i was seriously lonely...i text ACIIK..but my mood was not tat good..i started to felt sad inside of me..i am more sad when ACIIK can't meet me tmrw..but i understand his situation as he have lots of comitment...haisss...then suddenly i remembered my conversation with KIKI...yeahh..my girlfriend..misses her a lot..not only her..but FYIEFYIE and MIMI too...haha...i still can remember the moments we joke arnd and flirt arnd..haha..but now,since i broke up with ERUL,i didn't spent much time with them..):
but now i have the time...with them,i could feel the love of family..they are my sisters,brothers and friends..they will always support wat i am doing all along..even when i am with ACIIK..they hoped tat me and ACIIK could last long...they really cared for me even after i bust them the last time..i really love them a lot..
back to the topic,i accidentally expressed my feelings to ACIIK..and tat makes him uncomfortable...i didn't realized it...and after a few moments,i txt him...this is wat i say to him:

Me: I'm sorry kalau tdi i ade terkasar sikit. I rase tertekan sgt. I dnt
realized wat i said to u. Maybe wat i said makes u feel uncomfortable.
I'm really sorry. Seriously sorry. I knw u nid some space,
bt i feel guilty for expressing my thoughts to u.
I'm really sorry. Txt me when u're ready.

yea..after txting him tat,i waited for his reply..i was sooo scared...then he replied about 1 hr plus..i was soo happy but scared..haha...it was shocking as he was a bit sick..OMG!!!i am sooo damn worried and i regret saying those thoughts to him..i really regret tat i even say sorry to him for a few times..then he threaten me..it goes like this:

Aciik: Takda. U kalau ckap u salah lgy, i tk
layan u. K? So yea,cheer up.

so,i listened to him and try to cheer up..and yea,i did...we both started to joke...and i spent my time cooking..haha...unbelievable.. hehe...tats all i have...i will be posting tmrw..hope it will be a better post..<___>

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i am still feeling lonely now...

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

10:33 PM

heyyy..today i got mood to post then yesterday...hehe...wow!i didn't realized tat Hari Raya is coming soon...just a few days to go..haha...kkay...yesterday i went to ERAWR's hse to break fast..at first we were supposed to go to our Ustazah's hse..but she last minute got something on...so i planned to go to ERAWR's hse...at arnd 4 i went to Rivervale Mall to buy some stuff for buke..then i took a cab to go to ERAWR's hse..in the cab i was soo stressed...thinking of ACIIK...actually since at hme i've been so stressed...we both kinda got into a small fight...here's the conversation between us ysterday:

Aciik: Kalau jadi apa apa , u takmu risau k.
Me: Jadi ape2 ape?! Tkmo Risau?! Maksod u ape?! U tau tk nw i tgh
risau gyle pasal u! And u still bley ckap jgn risau pasal u!
Aciik: Insyallah i akan ok.
Me: Hw cn i yakin tat u will be okay?! Kalau i am nt allow to risau pasal
u,wats the point i am with u?!):
Aciik: K takpe. I ok.
Me: Yelh2. Tcare of urself je.
Aciik: Ok. I will keep u update.
Me: U must! i am not in the mood now.

haiss....sad right??but i already say sorry to him...it's just common for couple like me...but luckily all was okayy...
i reached at ERAWR's hse soon after thinking of wat had happened...when i meet ERAWR,she was a little crazy..haha..then we talk2 and watched tv...at 6,went to Punggol Plaza to buy something...i went to print photos of me to give it to ACIIK...hehe..then at 6.45 reached home..helped ERAWR to prepare for buke...then we waited...after buke,helped her mum to cook..then we eat while watched tv...me and ERAWR then lpk2 at the bustop...i feel like not going home...but i have too...at 10.45,the bus came...so i board it and when home...i walked slowly home...i stopped under my block..didn't feel like going upstairs...but i just went up...ARHGGGHHHH!!! sooo stressed at home...i went straight in my room..feel like taking all my stuff and went out of the hse..but ACIIK don't let me...so i don't..felt like crying and hitting something..but i try to calm down...at 12+,i called ACIIK..we talk for 1 hr then went to bed...i can't sleep as i got bad dream...soo sadd....when i woke up,i text ACIIK and he ask me to calm down...so now i am...and blogging right here..haha..kkay luhh..see ya on my nxt post!

-syahsyah♥

p/s: syng,i will always be worried for u...

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

9:47 AM

heyy...haha..my day today is fun..i went out at 2+...then i go to ERAWR's house...wanted to help her make kuih...hehe..reached her house at 3...then go to Punggol Plaza to buy the ingredients...but soo sway tat the baking chocolate have finished..then we rushed to Econ Minimart...but before going there,check out some clothes first..haha...bout one...very nice..hehe..after buying the chocolate,went back to her house and starting to make it..haha...have lots of fun making it...then ACIIK txt me..he is otw to meet me..i hurried to catch the bus...asked ERAWR to send me...so she did..then met ACIIK at Pondok...heehee...then we both walk to Rivervale Mall to buy something to break fast...after buying,we went to settle down at 149 and eat...then we talk and joke around..haha..had a fun time with him..every time...hehe...then at 9+,he send me home..haha...after reaching home i on the comp..i get to webcam with him..haha...then chat with ARI...asking abt his life and his bro...then he asked abt mine's and WANI's..haha..he still seemed to sayang WANI..hehe..kkay..forget it..then ACIIK asked me to update blog..then here i am...haha...
and i wanted to review about a song...haha....

hmmmm....this time its a new song from ARIL AF7..an original soundtrack of an upcoming muzikal drama title 'KAU AKU'...but the song is titled 'MENATAP MATAMU'...or in english means looking in ur eyes...haha...kaaay...this song is very nice...love its tempo,its arrangement and lyrics...sooo touching yet interesting..the song is about expressing wat he feels...the lyrics so hard for me to translate...but nvm..just enjoy it!!

and to KAK MAR,congrats on her birth....cute bby girl though...hehe....

-syahsyah♥

p/s: u're my heartbeat syng !

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

11:46 PM

heyhey...hehe...nice skin ritess?hehe...i have to thnk my sayaang for doing tis for me..hehe..THX SAYAANG!!haha...sooo loong nvr post siaaa...hehes..kkays...let's strt on last Saturday,4th September 2009..it was the day of my performance...very nervous at first..scared tat i won't be able to remember the steps...hehe..so reached the cc at about 10..i think...then KAK AINA do my make-up while KAK MASTURA do AMYRAWR's hair....hehe...while KAK NANA do her own makeup...30 mins past...then we switched(AMYRAWR and me)..my turn to do the hair and AMYRAWR's turn to do her makeup...KAK NANA? still doing her makeup....hehe..after another 30 mins,me and AMYRAWR practise our dance...when KAK AYUU called us to go,we are totally nervous..in the van the kompang guys make lots of noise....very noisy siaa...then the van stopped...omg!!hate tat part...we were damn hot..then 10 mins ltr we reached the place...it was lucky that the van is okayy....at the Army Salvation,we get ready...changed our clothes and touched our makeup and hair..then went out to check on our stage...it was a shocked as the stage was damnn small..we were stressed out...while we were stressing out,some ppl want to take our photos and pics with us...soo we just smile...when the host announce our name,we just get ready..then we dance...it was scary as i was not quite sure of where i am dancing...but then i just try my best...after the performance,i was glad tat the audience love it..including the VIP...tat makes our say happier...then somemore photo taking...haha...at 3.30,our ride have same...then we change etc all tat..the van was soo cramped...the guys bought some things from the shop...otw back,something bad happened...the van stopped for every 10 mins..soo the irratating...we even sweat...from 30 mins journey,it became a 1 hr journey...shit!
but everything come clean when we reached the cc...then me n AMYRAWR took 34 to Punggol then took 136 to Sengkang to meet AJAQ...there we break fast together...then lpk for awhile...at arnd 9,i went to my aunt's hse..lucky ERAWR was there..talk with my aunt and her...then went home..at 12 am i called ACIIK,my syng,hehe...we were not in the right mood actually...at 1 am ,we end our convo and went to bed....hmmm....tat was really akward....i cnt even sleep the whole night...tats all for today...more stories to come...hehes...

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i owe u sooo much syng!!

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

11:52 AM

heyy...sorry for not posting ysterday...ssoooo damn fucking tired siaa...after school go mit AMYRAWR at Compasspoint...then we go to Tampines for our dance practise..haha..at there we dance and we learn new steps as well as touch up on our step...both KAK AINAA and KAK NANA were there...at 6,KAK AINAA left us in the room as she need to rushed to 'somewhere'...hehee..so only left me,AMYRAWR and KAK NANA...we all are waiting for our boyfriends...we both wanted to buke with our syngs....hehe...we were joking around when ACIIK called me...i answer it..they have reached Tampines Central CC...tat was fast too actually...hhehee...only left KAK NANA's boyfriend...so when we looked down to the first floor,we saw ACIIK and AJAQ..but no sign of KAK NANA's boyfriend...so we decided to go down...the we saw KAK NANA's boyfriend...haha...funny actually...then we all go to FOOD PALACE at the CC to buke...after buying food and drinks,we enjoy our meals...hehehe...AJAQ was trying to be funny while we were eating...laugh all the way...then we went to the bustop to go Pondok..we took 34 from there and went straight to Punggol Interchange...AJAQ wanted to hang out there...it was funny as there were lots of dogs there and AJAQ was being too funny...haha...we broke up into two groups,AJAQ & AMYRAWR and ACIIK & me....hheee...its obvious.. haaha...after hanging out,we decided to go to Pondok but AMYRAWR went home...haha...so i am the only girl left...after reaching at Pondok,met the rest of the gang...haha...we hang out for a while then at 9+,ACIIK sent me home..haha...when i reach home,i suddenly missed him alot...its like we haven't met....txt him and call AMYRAWR as well as him but his phone a bit sot...haha...then at 12+ i sleep...haha...same as just now too...meet him,AJAQ and AMYRAWR...but this time got SUHAIL and ERAWR...hehe...they follow us(me and AMYRAWR) to our dance practise...they also watched we dance...haha...great..but a bit of paiseyy...but we just dance...then we went home...taking 34 again..haha...from Punggol Interchange we take 136..go to Hougang Mall with ERAWR,ACIIK and SUHAIL...but we broke up with the guys as they were meeting someone else...haha...go to the library then went home...after eating,play the comp and here i am...haha...tats all for today..but wish me luck for tmrw aitess...got performance....haha...

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i am missing u syng (: ♥

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

7:33 PM

heyy...now i'm in school..haha...just a short post...this is too all the spamers...if u think tat spamming my blog is fun instead of reading it,just get a life okayy??..and one more thing,i just wanna say sorry to AYU if she felt hurt when reading my last posts....to AYU,the posts is sooo long ago...just forget about it...i am leading a new life now..so i won't be disturbing ANDY too...soo to AYU and ANDY,i won't disturb both of ur life anymore...please have fun with ur relationship and last long...please don't misunderstand soo easily...its been sooo long since i post that...like 1 to 2 months?..just to make it clear tat i just love ACIIK only...now he is my life and my love...soo hope tat there would not be any misunderstanding anymore...and to those spammers, GET A LIFE OKAYY??

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i will be posting tonight about my day with Aciik today...(:

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

2:10 PM

~♥29/08/09♥~
hmmmm...wat a unique date...haha...am i right??haha..wondering why suddenly got this date??heehe...remember tat in my older post i have write something about THE ONE ??yeah...now its time to reveal everything for once...THE ONE is actually......ACIIK..hmmm...hehe...it's seems tat he is the one whom can heal my broken heart...tats great actually..knowing him is the best thing tat have ever happened to me...could he be my dream guy??haha...maybe...the first date with him id nice...then the next day i plan to visit him at ECP..so i went there with few of my friends...when i reached there,he was working...and he's supervisor was there too...soo i thought of not disturbing him and let him work...but then he asked me to sit inside the shop as it was damnn hot...so i did..he sat beside me too..so we have a chat...we talked and joke around..haha...then its time to say goodbye....): soo sad sehhyy...his phone also batt flat tat time...so i was like sooo damnn boring..then inside the car i text him... i said "heyy...jst now was fun...it was the most happiest thing for today..hope u eply soon!"...i was dying without him msging me...then at 11+ pm,he txt me...i was soooooooo happy...i jumped up and down my bed..haha..we txt a few random things...then at 11.45,he proposed me time be his girlfriend...double happy siaa...haha...so i accepted him...now we are sooo happy to be together...nothing can express wat i felt now..its like my heart have beeen healed....thx to him...
(:

-syahsyah♥

p/s: i love youu SYNG!!! ♥ sy(A)ciik ♥

{Syahsyah Bonch'Bonch ♥}

11:38 AM